Peektures from tournament!

I became a photographer on Razer Amateur Tournament cause i was banned from the competition and I was hoping to contribute a tiniest strength to the community. It was fun overall, especially when I took pictures of people falling asleep. HAHAH!

The result of the competition didn't surprise me at all, knowing they never played for quite some time but I knew they still have the touch and all.

After the event, I had hard time uploading the pictures. That stupid facebook is screwing me around and I didn't get to upload all the pictures until I get to cyber cafe. Bah!

Anyhow here's the pictures. :)

Click me!

First time

For the first time, I actually struggle to do it. Everytime when I wanted to do it, I'll just say it to them and hoping they would say nice things and ask me not to. But this time, I'm kind of struggle to tell them about it. But I know it's the right choice for me to do, also right choice for me to step down. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing but I just feel like it's time. After so many times I've tried to do it, this is the first time I actually felt that there's need for me to do so.

Reason for me to step down? I'm just not good enough to be part of em. I can't be the best, so I decide to die like the rest. It's as simply as that. But I would prefer to do something from the back. Something that I was hoping to be but due to some restriction that I had, I can't. Hopefully after I tell them my decision I could do something different. I'm just too tired to even try to save it when people taking me as a pinch of salt.

There's only one thing left in my mind. Would they ever speak to me again after I tell them my decision?

Friendship?

Human being can be so cruel at times. Sometimes I just can't figure out why people can be so mean to others, especially someone who did nothing to him or whatsoever. I don't get it.

Aren't friend suppose to help each other? What I felt now is a stab on my back, worse still I knew he did it and I cannot do anything about it because I appreciate what me and him have. We have so many common friends and I don't want to make it worse by confronting him because I know it's gonna be explosive.

Why is this happening? I really got no idea. I don't think I did anything wrong and yet I had this kind of treatment. How is that fair to me?

Everyone is so selfish to the fact that they only care about themselves. Why can't this world to be a better place where everyone share everything with different kind of people, no matter what's their race, religion or even nationality? This world wouldn't be in this condition if everyone willing to share everything with everyone

Human are greedy. That's the reason of existance of Seven Deadly Sins.

Merry Christmas!

I'm here to wish everyone Merry Christmas! Hope you guys get to celebrate with your love ones. :)

As for me I stayed at home for the whole day, didn't really feel like going out.. Or I should say no one asked me to go out. :/ Planned to work actually but apparently I didn't get chosen so yeah, I stayed at home whole day and watched Incredible Hulk, Batman and The DaVinci Code. Rofl.

I miss the Chibi Maruko girl I saw during Comic Fiesta. ):

Arghhh now I regret of not taking her phone number, or even her facebook email. Darn me!

Comic Feast

Never in my life had been such hectic, exciting and at the same time, uneasy feelings come at the same time. Yes I went for Comic Feast. I was working at GameAxis booth to promote the magazine. Basically I just sit there and wait for money to come setup the booth for the gamers to play PS3 games like NFS:Shift, Street Fighter 4, Fifa 10, and the game that had never changed since we turned on, Rock Band. I don't quite get the idea why people are so obsess with rock band. Retards must be suck so bad in music, he/she has to fulfill his/her dream by playing the music game. So nice meh?

Anyways, comic feast was a blast, without a fucking doubt! It was so successful that one of my friend want to cosplay for the next year! Personally I find these events are a good way to make friends and also take a nice picture of yourself and put it into your personal space. I did took some pictures and I swore to myself that I'm definitely getting a DSLR for myself before end of this year because I'm literally cursing myself for not having a better camera to take the cosplay pictures! ):

Oh if you want to see the pictures, go my facebook to check it out! :) Not much pictures but at least there's something to see. :P

Comic Fiesta pictures!

Out of random, random.

Tomorrow gonna work at Sunway Pyramid for this Comic Feast that they are currently running. Apparently I just need to stand there and take care of the booth. Shouldn't be any harder than that I guess. :/

I went for a tournament today, knocked out two teams and left. I was suppose to be there tomorrow but unfortunately I have to work, so I'll need to skip it and go work. I finally know how's the feeling of it when you taunt one and they have absolute no idea how to fight back. It really feels good and I kind of like that feeling, especially he was someone you don't really like it at the first place. I must say, I feel "syok".

Oh yes I finished my exam this Thursday, which was 3 days ago. I was eager to wait for this holiday to come cause I thought I planned alot of stuff to do but apparently I didn't really have much things to do afterall. I think I need to have a more detail planning next time before I'm heading to a holiday so that I won't waste my holiday like what I used to do last time. Two weeks of holiday, until 11th of January 2010. What should I do in between? I plan to find work during this period of time but work isn't easy to find if you ask me. I really want to work for my DSLR but it seems like it's not easy afterall. You want to work, doesn't mean there's slot for you.

Next semester, I'm taking four subjects but going to college on two days only. I feel like joining the gym, so that I can go there after my class but I don't know if I can commit to it, after what I did back then when I was in HELP, registered but only go like five times per month. It's really wasting if you ask me. :/

Speaking of course, I'm thinking of doing a double major. As I'm currently majoring in Psychology, I want to do Mass Comm also. Of course, for future purposes. I believe I could easily get a job compare to fresh graduate who only have one major. But I don't know if I should go for it as the workload is going to be alot more compare to now. If I take, I don't know if I can drop it or not as what Ms.Citra said. Man this is really getting my head.

Recently nothing good happen to me, besides the finals which turns out to be quite an easy task for me. Hopefully I can pass with flying colors. I don't think I should waste anymore time on education. I should start depend on myself in-terms of living expenses and others. I'm an adult and I cannot depend my parent forever. I need to grow up!

This or that? Or maybe those?

I'm looking for DSLR as I have high interest in snapping photos, especially beautiful scenery. You cannot deny that some of the natural scenery really attract you, like crazy. That's why I choose to get a DSLR instead of digital camera.

I have couple of choices actually. Budget wise, I'll think of it later. I need to know how much I need to spend on getting a DSLR so that I know how crazy I need to work for it. :/

First up, LUMIX FZ18. Saw this package at summit as Christmas promotion. Apparently is the cheapest so far.

Second, would be the D90 of Nikon. Apparently it's the easiest for beginner like me but the price tag kind of scare me off. :/

Third, D60 of Nikon. MYR1950 and I think I can afford it.

There's so many more model that I like but I don't know which suits me best as a beginner of snapping photos. I still thinking which to get and I need to start work my ass up there. I really admire people who own DSLR camera. Sigh.

The best picture I've ever snap was this.



I can take a better picture if I have DSLR that time.

New part!

Finally, got all the parts for my new PC. Although is not i7, but it's good enough now. Don't really want to spend anymore on PC already. So, I'll stay as it is. I'm so exciting about it now!

Anyway, I worked in PC Fair during the weekend. Honestly, I enjoy it alot. Although I'm almost drop dead when I reach home, but it's a experience full with fun. I know alot of people from there and took quite a lot of pictures. Sneak peak..



Go to my facebook for more pictures. :)

Next week would be my first exam in SEGI College. Honestly I don't know what to do now. Study? Don't feel like it. Game, don't feel like it as well. What I want to do is to lose some weight. HAHAHAHHA! I realized I'm kind of.. fat taking space while snapping a photo. Hmm..

End of disaster.. NOT!

So long never update my blog already. Been busy all the while preparing my assignment, and three presentation as well. Three of the presentation I have to do within this week, I already done both and both of them are the hardest among the three. So tomorrow, last presentation should be the easiest one cause from what I've heard, I only need to sit back and enjoy. El-Owh-El.

Damn it the assignments are really pain in the ass. I literally wanna rip my head off just to stop these but I can't. I wish to go somewhere after my finals is over. But I'm short of cash. Financial crisis, how to go? :/

Life's a bitch. Deal with it!

Post dooms-alike-week

Finally the end of weekday is here. Been seriously busy throughout the whole week due to the 3 assignment I need to submit this week and I joke you not, I've slept less than 24 hours for this week. I even slept inside my friend's car, that shows how tired I am this week. Totally have no time for extra entertainment.

However, it's not over yet. I still have 1 more assignment and presentation to turn in before my finals. OH-EMM-GEE! One of em haven't even started yet. Credits to my group members, who delayed all they want. Damn it if I can do it alone I'd do it long time ago. Bitches.

I never touch games for quite some time, competitive wise. Never train for quite some time already. I'm sure I already rusty like crazy by now. But meh, assignments and stuffs really made me have no time to even play the game competitively.

Now something is stucking inside my mind. Should I go for double major? It seems like I've already took 3 of the requirement subject to be major in Mass Communication. If I go for it, I have extra more subjects to study to graduate. If I don't I only graduate with single major, which is not really unique in a sense of I only can do one thing at a time.

What should I do? :/

Dooms-a-like day.

So long never write blog already. Recently happened alot of stuff! My group had finally finish filming but unfortunately we missed out some of the important stuff. We need to go back to shoot again. >_<

This week is my dooms-a-like day. I need to submit three out of five assignments to my lecturer by the end of the week. Although I've done one and the other two is like 80%, but still I'm worried. Presenting isn't a easy job. It requires alot of practice and frankly I not even sure if I'm on the right track. Hopefully I am. :/

YES! Played this new game named Borderlands. Not really that new since it's already release like months ago. But I manage to play with my friends in co-op, which giving some time to release my stress while thinking about the assignment. The game is similar to Diablo2. You still can go around eventhough you max your level, have the best gun, or completed the game. Frankly I enjoyed every moment I spent in this game.

I don't know when I'll be free to update my blog again as I'm going to be very busy until mid of December. Sigh, though I like college life, but this is not what I adore the most.

GC Problem

Had problem with my graphic card recently. It's either the fan got problem or something else. My GC temperature maintain at 70 Celsius, which is almost double of the usual temperature. Sad sia. How am I gonna do my stuff? :/

Went to a tournament and my team didn't really train together. But we managed to snatch the 3rd spot, which is a great news. But at the same time we lost in another knockout stage as well. Well 3rd spot should be covered with it eventually. :P

Assignments are still alot as always. Don't know why I can't seem to concentrate on doing my assignment during weekends. >_< I still prefer to do it during weekdays.

Chelsea won at Stamford Bridge, 1 - 0! Yay!

So many and so little time

I have like more than 5 assignment to due before 20th of November. Like crap life I have currently. Damn it I need to work alot more faster before the due date comes to me.

Lotsa thing happened. Best thing would be the placing in competition and worst would be the group member. They seriously can suck my peanut and go off. Such irresponsible people and giving lame excuses for not doing the work she said she would do. Great so now we need to do EVERYTHING from scratch again cause she promised she could do the script part. niceeee.

One assignment is going down soon! Another to come. Wah it's like the stupid *******. Whatever, keep it coming. I'll finish it one by one without any hesitation or problems!

Post-Midterm

Finally finished my midterm! It wasn't that hard afterall. Guess I'm just scaring myself. :P Anyways, I had a great time on exam. Seems is alot more easier than i thought. :D But I can't really answer for American Civilization cause I had couple of questions that i don't get it. :/

WHATEVER! It's all past. Screw it.

I'm planning to get a i7. Which should I go for? :/ I'm really scratching my head off to get a PC but I have no idea which is better. Already had few in mind and still thinking about it. Anyways, I gonna get a new PC for new games! :D

COD:MW2 apparently have no dedicated servers and will be having matchmaking. There's only two outcome for this game. Is either the game will fail very hard for competitive, or they gonna give us the dedicated servers. How sia. :/

Pre-Midterm

Midterms is coming! This coming Thursday! Two mid-term summore! Oh-Mmm-Gee! Study more! So many main point to remember. Crap! :/ But no worries! Since there's 2 more days, I just go through what she taught me. I'll be fine! I'll be okay!

Study!

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RANT!

MAHAI! Where got people going for school/college/work during holiday want! Cibai it's Deepavali for fuck sake. Why got fucking class want.

SIEN LA LIKE THAT!

Selling alot of stuff. Do check it out! Who knows I might having something you looking for! :) Click ME!

WAYNE WUZ H3r3

Project "Infected" slight changes

I want to try something new. Something not people would had thought of. Something not much people would want to attempt. Something might be hard for me to do. I'm wondering now. Is it going to work? Hmm.

It's really hard to predict, but I really like it. It gives people motivation and urge to be better. I want to try it, although this is my first time doing it, but I don't care! I just want to do it, see if is working. Something I really feel like doing it.

Do only la!

Glenmarie

Went to Glenmarie with 2 of my college friends. Been wanting to meet them but always not at the right time. This time we meeting up cause my friend is having her birthday and we decided to go back GlenMarie again. Although not the first time but still couldn't really find the way. >_>



This place is so elegant, the atmosphere was so gentle. No tense to the visitors. The workers doesn't wear suits or tie, it's a whole new idea of making the visitor feel home.



Me and my friends went in for buffet dinner. It was a blast! We had a wonderful session. Didn't realized there's so much thing to catch up!



The restaurant was the nicest part. The design and such making you feel like you're back home. <3 The light and environment was designated for couples and friends. It's so nice you don't want to go back.



Isn't this looks nice? Want to have a bite? :P Seriously, that's the most delicious steak and lamb I've ever had. I've absolute no second doubt on going back there again just for the steak.



Desert for you? I can assure you that the cheesecake is so delicious, you'd take the whole thing when the waitress bring that out. Me and my friends almost took half of it!

Went back roughly 10pm. Drop my friend back home at Subang, then I drive myself back. I'm definitely gonna go back there some time!

p.s: I didn't wake up for class this afternoon cause I was too lazy to go.

To buy or not to buy?

I've been wanting to change my computer specs. It's getting slower and slower, not to mention is no longer up to date. I'm using C2D 2.0GHz. I'm considering like one of the outdated pc owner among my friends. If you do notice, I've even listed out what I want for my PC spec.


Current PC

BUT!

Where do I get those money?! Arghh. Been trying to save up for new PC spec but the money doesn't seem like me that much. Lots of wanted stuff going through my mind. I know PC wasn't the primary one but meh, I want to have a better PC! At least not like the one I'm using, and tend to crash everytime I play my game.

Now here's what I've been thinking. Should I go for Quad Core or i5/i7? Been thinking about this lately. Quad Core cheaper, but soon going to be outdated. i5/i7 is alot more updated compare to QuadCore but is alot more expensive! When I said alot, I do mean.. ALOT. It's like you need at least two thousand to get yourself laid by i5/i7. Arghh! Not much money to spend, but lot of things wanted to buy!

I should start selling stuff now!

Oh btw I'm selling Barracuda bag. Do dropby and check it out. You might get something you wanted in cheaper price! Click ME!

Project "Infected" Deferred

I'm not gonna make out a frag movie without proper synchronize, and not just for the sake of showing people. I'll try my best to make a frag movie that very much done with editing and stuff. It's not like I doing it for them. I'm doing it for myself. I will not try to do it faster just because they urge me to show em.

I've tried to make a frag movie in less than 4 hours and it sucked badly. I don't want this to happen. I want this to be, not the best, but at least people would remember about it.

I'm deferring it also because lack of demos. I don't want to show ONLY my demos. I'd prefer to add in my friend's demo as well. At least it wouldn't look so dull and boring.

Scenery

There's some really attractive scenery you don't get to see everyday.

I'm in Singapore!

I'm in Singapore now. So happy. Everything here is soo different compared to Malaysia. But I'm not going to list it out here yet cause I'm still compiling. Maybe after few days when I back to Malaysia. Until then, ..

WAIT! :P

p.s. Btw, here's my day 1 pictures in Singapore. Go check it out! :) Click me!

Off to Singapore!

Yes. I'm going to Singapore and gonna be back @ Monday. Until then!

p.s. I gonna take alot of pictures! :D

Pictar

Latest pictar :o



Too bored inside the car while waiting for long queue traffic light. =/

100th post!

HA! 100th post! What should I write? Hmmm..

I'm working on my project at the moment, and so coincidentally I'm taking a similar subject in my college, named The movies. Basically it teaches you the angles, shots, and color you should use in a particular situation. I think I gonna learn alot from there. :D

This is my project if you are wondering.

Didn't realize until the day. American Civilization and The Movies taught by a same lecturer. Well that's a good thing. I can ask her about American Civil questions in Movies class, and movies in American Civil class. I think I'm going to enjoy the class more than I expect. :)

I spend the whole Saturday afternoon for my project. Although is half way done but I feel I can do it better. Still trying to fix it and make it perfect but it's not as easy as I think it would be. Nevermind, I'll try more harder to make this project a successful one!

Infected - Trailer

Current project I'm working on, and I'm taking Movie class this sem. Hopefully it's helping me through this project.

Infected Trailer

Can't put it here cause the window for my video is too big for my blog. =/

Untitled.

Went up genting with friend. You know the drill. Drink, enjoy the environment, enjoy the cool air, then come back down.

Now I wonder why people like to do that while they spend most of their time traveling instead of enjoying.

American Civilization. Hmm.

A luck turn around day.

Today I woke up at 11am, got awake by my mother. I was suppose to be awake at 10am to ready up for my class which starts at 12pm. But still I'm abit lazy cause I just woke up. Went to check my downloads, it stops. This is what the connection looks like;

Limited or no connectivity.

OMG WTF!? Bah I have no time for this. I turned off my PC then went downstairs to have my breakfast. Took it like 5 minutes then I drive off to my college.

First day of this class. I'd say it's quite interesting, despite is one of the subjects that I didn't like it much, still I find it quite amusing when my lecturer giving lecture. After an hour of class, she decided to give us a 15 minutes break. While I was about to leave the library, I realize my wallet was missing. Went back to class check around, nothing. Check if i dropped inside my car, nothing. Then I decided to call my mother and ask her to look around inside my room and living room. But sadly there isn't any. Now all I got is only 80 cent.

After the class end, I went to look for my cousin who work in Summit. Asked him for 15 bux then I buy lunch for myself. While I was on the way, my mom called and she said she can't find my wallet. Then I remember that I was out yesterday so I asked my mom to try to find it in another car. The wallet is just below the handbreak of another car. Luckily my mom found it.

While I was on the way back, there's roadblock. I damn scared sia! Luckily they just check the roadtax, but the license. When I was about to enter my house, I stumble this beautiful thing. I decided to take a picture of it







Isn't it beautiful? <3

College

Now I'm having 3 classes per week. Monday, Thursday and Friday. Which means I only have 2 days free to play games. =/ I've made up my mind. On the 3 days of classes, I'll look for part time after I finish my class.

Actually I did ask already. Hopefully my cousin's shop got vacancy for me. Cannot slack around but need to work harder now. I'll take those time I spend on working to do assignment or something, and gain some allowance.

Honestly MYR500 per month is close to enough for me. But I can't ask more cause last time I only get MYR300. Increment of MYR200 should be more than enough, that's what my parents think. So hopefully I get this job, can gain some allowance as well.

First day of class wasn't that bad. There's some good looking girls in my class. HAHAHAH! Friends are all around so I guess shouldn't be a problem.

I wonder how heavy is the workload for the job and assignments.



P.S. Seven more to beat last year's post count. Yay!

Big Spender.

Can't believe I myself is one of the big spender as well. I spend almost 300 in less than 6 hours. I bought 2 jeans, 1 jacket, 1 pair of shoes. Didn't know myself is such a shopaholic guy.

I'm officially diagnosed as oniomania victim, not serious one.

OMG I'm such a big spender, for a guy. I spent almost MYR1k this week. I spend on 5h USB, 1 terrabyte HDD, and today I spend money on my outfit.

I need to control myself..

Class

Starting my class next week Monday. I'm so eager to go back to college life again since last year December. Few good things about it though. I'm not really that worried about the new environment that I'm going cause there's alot of friends of mine are there already. So it's like they are waiting for me to be there. Another thing is that there are good looking girls in my batch. So at least it wouldn't look that dull when I'm having my class.

HOHO!

My friend jealous. But meh, it's not like that mean anything also.

Anyway, the facilities are good, at least I don't need to walk like a dog to get to library, or take shuttle bus to get somewhere I want to eat, or walk myself to another block just to photocopy some of my assignments. And I don't even need to spend more than MYR2 just to park at the friggin parking lot they ready for us.

I think I'll adapt well into the new college life and environment.

Yay.

Dream

I dream of her, after she left me since I was 8, when I was standard four. I still remember how it happened. I was waiting for my mom to fetch me back from tuition, but turned up to be my sister to fetch me. By the time I went into the car, my sister tell me this.

She can't hold any longer.

I don't know I actually miss her so much after so many years. I guess I've been missing out on her these years. And I've been such a bad grandchild for skipping the most important day every year.

Grandma, I miss you soooo much. I wish I have more time to be with you when I was a kid. Now that you're gone, everything has changed. May you rest in peace.

Lucky

Today I went Lowyat Plaza with 2 of my friend. Picked them up, then we head to Lowyat Plaza. My friend wanted to get a monitor and HDD, and I wanted to get HDD as well. I wanted to get 5hv2 USB but I was really in dilemma about getting it cause it's not a all rounded headset, so I was considering while on the way to LYN.

First shop, selling MYR409. I'm like "Okay, that's normal price. All place selling that price."

Second shop, selling MYR405. Okay, MYR4 cheaper. Maybe I'll get it from here.

Third shop, selling MYR409. Hmm. Maybe I should go back to second shop.

Fourth shop, selling MYR409. Okay la I think I should go back already.

When I reach the fifth shop, I was checking around and the price tag popped out. I grab it and I go pay cause I lazy to walk back.

This is the price I'm paying for a 5Hv2 USB.



HAHAHAH!

So happy! Got it for MYR349 instead of MYR409, which I saved MYR60 for it! After that my friend get his monitor and 2 HDD including mine. Overall is like, MYR1.3k++ Sexy siaaa <3



My gaming gear is complete now. Now I'll try to get a new proc after I got my allowance next month.

Moving Forward

I think we did another step on moving forward to my dream. One team that I've been dreaming to beat, been train myself so hard to beat, been telling myself I can do it. I finally did, although we lost two map after that, but I am really proud of my man already. They are showing me how much they are wanting it and they show me they can do it. I believe the next time if we meet each other, we will be having a better chance of beating them. I know we can. I know my mans can. I know I can. Wait for me. I'll be coming back for you all.

Out of difficulties, makes miracle

Today went to my college to register. Surprisingly they said I've already registered, eventhough I didn't do anything at all. Weird eh? But I need to go back to college on Friday for orientation. I sound like freshies. wtf! Hopefully I can finish my college faster, stop wasting time already.

New blog layout

Here's my new blog layout. I myself kind satisfied with the design and such. At least it looks more "alive". I'll be keeping this layout cause I really like the design, the way it looks. :P

Something happened. Someone talked to me. He inspires me. I'm planning to push myself all the way. He is the one who inspires me, taught me mostly everything. I don't want to disappoint him cause I know how much this meant to him. I'll strive my best. I'll give my best. No matter what, I'll prove it to everyone this time. I've done once, I believe I can do that again. Nothing can stop me!

Tomorrow have to take report from my doc. Wonder what's the report gonna be like. Hopefully nothing biggie.

Having new toy soon. :D Already had one, tomorrow collect another one. Yay!

New toy!

Just realized

I just realize, and found out that..

I'm not young anymore.

During the conversation my friends had, I found out that I'm no longer at my puberty stage. I'm no longer a kid. I cannot be so irresponsible.

I'm an adult. I'm a grown up. I'm twenty two this year, twenty three is coming to me.

Entitled

Took a blood test with my friend today morning. I wouldn't say it's a disaster, cause I'm not having fever or whatsoever, just a little feeling of unwell. Hopefully I'll recover by then. Today I was quite happy laa. Cause it's the first time I really went out after I sick and I got back without having any fever or flu. I get to see alot of me in like next Monday! So I'll know what I have, and what I don't.

Soon there's another competition. I don't really sees that as important as it is, but I'll just play. I won't go fully, but I'll do my best. Because alot of people sick these few days, and my team didn't get to train. Not trying to get a reason for me to lose, but I don't quite find the urge to compete already. Maybe it's because of the management. Sigh.

I'm SEGI-an!

Oh yeah forget to mention, I'm officially SEGI-an now. Just that I have yet to register. The semester starts at 21st of August. Hopefully I can finish my course as fast as possible. I've been dragging my studies for too long. I think it's time for me to concentrate on my studies instead of something else.

B U T !

I'm not really happy about the management. At first I have to pay MYR100 just to send my transcript to United States to check if I'm illegible to be their student. If I knew I can save this MYR100 I could have just fuck them and go straight to the department. Wasted MYR100 for nothing. Silly staffs. And they actually making me feel that I'm not good enough for their college. There's this fella telling me that they having 70% of passing rate in their college.

Of course la! Your paper is so damn easy, which clarified by my friends who transferred earlier. If your paper is easy and yet no high passing rate means something is wrong with your college right? But I choose to ignore and just say yes to whatever he said.

It took me like almost 2 months to wait the confirmation letter to arrive my doorsteps. Before this I was worried cause my results wasn't that good for me to apply UIU. Whoever knows me in college they would know I'm actually a ADP student, where I'll transfer to another country to complete my studies. But due to some family issue, I was not able to transfer and I was forced to stop studying in my previous college and I need to move to another college. Bad thing is that KDU doesn't offer psychology course. If they offer it'd be easy for me cause KDU is like few kilometers away from my place. And I got alot of friends studying there as well. But, too bad laa!

Whatever it is, I've received my confirmation letter and now what I need to do is to register myself and I'll start my course right away! Hopefully I can follow the schedule and finish my whole course as fast as possible because I'm waiting to throw something..

Again

I think I'm having fever again. It's like 3 times already. Since I came back from the competition, I've been having bad health condition. I'm not the only one. There's alot of people falling sick as well. One of my friend, had to quarantine for 10 days. As for me, I'm not feeling well. The day I came back from competition, the body wasn't feel good at all, the next day, i fall asick, after I had some meds, it seems to that i'm recovered. But it doesn't it strikes back yesterday night while I was out with my friends at Tbun Aman Suria. I came back, eat meds and get some sleep. Around 2 midnight, the body temperature goes down. I thought it was just some normal flu, but it wasn't.

Today doesn't look promising. I've been laying on the bed since afternoon till evening. Whole 5 hours I've been sleeping, but it doesn't seem to help. Now it's worse. I'm wearing jacket and I didn't switch on the air conditioner. You can try to imagine how bad is my condition at the moment. This is bad. This isn't good. Now every night my fever seems to come back to me. Sigh.

Am I infected H1N1? I'm so tired. Whole body doesn't have any strength. I'm too tired, whole body is so heavy that I don't even want to move a single inch. So tired that I wish I was dead. When does this illness go awayy? I'm sick of being sick. I feel bad now, feel that everything is so wrong now. I'm so tired. My eyes was closed when I'm typing this entry. Do i really need to check doctor? But what if the doc said I'm infected? I'll need to quarantine. I'll need to stay at home! I can't go anywhere else!

Damn it. Why does illness come to me at this moment? Sigh, I'm sneezing none stop, with jacket. So ill now. So lazy to move now.

Anyone want to volunteer to take care of me?

Diagnosed H1N1

I was diagnosed as H1N1 infected victim. Sick for a week or so, that's why I didn't update my blog. Need to get some rest before I go for longer journey. These few days of me absent from blogging not because of illness, but I did something else as well. But anyway, I'm okay now. I'm healthy now. I'm no longer H1N1 carrier. Thank God for that. For more info about swine flu, read this article.

Swine Flu (H1N1)

-The swine flu A (H1N1) is a viral infection that originated from pigs and was first isolated from pigs in the 1930s.

-From 2005 up to 2009, 10 cases of swine flu were reported in the USA according to the CDC.

-As of June 18th- According to the CDC, 17,855 cases of swine flu were confirmed as of June 18th, 2009, including 44 deaths. New York has the most deaths, with 13.

-As of June 18th, the WHO (World Health Organization) states 70 countries have confirmed cases of influenza A(H1N1) infection.

The World Health Organization elevated the worldwide pandemic alert level to Phase 5, on April 29, 2009. Phase 5 is called when there is a “strong signal that a pandemic is imminent and that the time to finalize the organization, communication, and implementation of the planned mitigation measures is short.”

Phase 6 is the highest level. On June 11th, the WHO raised the level to Phase 6, indicating that the flu has spread worldwide.



-Antibiotics do not help this infection since it is not from a bacteria.The only medicines which help are antivirals-

-The flu usually strikes during the Winter months and early spring. An epidemic this late is unusual. However, there have been reports of swine flu occurring during summer camps during the summer of 2009.

Swine Flu Deaths

By May 2nd, 2009m the WHO stated there was another 159 probable swine flu deaths, and 1,300 people were hospitalized. The earliest case of swine flu was traced to patient zero- a 5 year old boy in La Gloria, Mexico. The US Company, Smithfield Farms, owns pig farm in town, but none of the pigs have tested positive. Smithfield Farms denied that any of their pigs were infected in a WSJ article in May.

Swine Flu Symptoms

The swine flu symptoms reported when infected with the swine flu are similar to the symptoms of the influenza virus most are familiar with. The good news is that most people who become infected will do fine and will not have any long term complications. Those who are immune compromised, older or pregnant may be at higher risk of complications or serious respiratory illness. The most common swine flu symptoms include:

* Cough
* Congestion
* Nasal Congestion
* Nausea/Vomiting
* Diarrhea
* Body aches
* Joint Pains
* Fevers
* Sore throat
* Headaches
* Fatigue
* Decreased energy
* Rarely death in more severe cases, especially from pneumonia.

Transmission

The viral infection is transmitted to humans who are in contact with swine, although there are several cases of swine flu in people who had no known exposure to either infected people or pigs. Once the species barrier is crossed, human to human transmission can occur with casual contact or airborne transmission, like when one sneezes or coughs. Eating pork products will not cause one to develop the swine flu. Basically, this flu is passed from one person to another like any cold of flu infection.

Prevention of Swine Flu

Washing hands routinely with soap and warm water, and wearing a N99 mask/respirator, such as the Wein ViraMask may also be helpful if you must be in public places. The Wein mask/respirator is strapless and adheres tightly to all faces. When used appropriately, it does not leak. N99 masks provide 100 x more protection than a N95 mask, which are sill a decent option. 3M is also a manufacturer of such masks. If you are planning on traveling by air or train, having a mask available would be a good idea in case it is needed. Also, avoid contact with sick people whenever possible. If you are sick, stay home.

Use alcohol based hand sanitizers to minimize infection risk. Some also use the Wein Air Supply Personal Air Purifier to help reduce exposure to airborne germs. Further, we know that eating healthy food, getting plenty of sleep and keeping your immune system strong can help prevent infections. Vitamin D supplementation may also be of benefit when taken in adequate doses.

Diagnosis of Swine Flu

Remember- most with flu symptoms simply have a viral infection and NOT the swine flu. Maintaining adequate hydration is very important if you contract any viral illness. The swine flu is diagnosed when a physician suspects infection, and sends a nasopharyngeal swab ( a Q-tip of shorts placed about 2 inches in your nose towards your throat) in a special viral collection container to a special lab to be tested.

Treatment of Swine Flu

If you contract the swine flu, there are 2 flu medications which can be helpful. The CDC recommends the use of oseltamivir (Tamiflu) or zanamivir (Relenza) for the treatment and/or prevention of infection with swine influenza viruses. These medications can also be used for the usual avian influenza. Symptomatic care is most important. Antibiotics will not help. Ask your doctor about your options. Those at high risk should strongly be considered for treatment with medications. High risk patients include those with diabetes, heart disease, immune compromised, seniors over age 65.

Swine Flu Vaccine

On June 12, a new vaccine was apparently produced by Novartis Pharmaceuticals. If you did receive a flu vaccine this year, it will not offer you protection against the swine flu. Baxter Pharmaceuticals however issued a press release saying they are working on a vaccine also. Whether these will prove to be effective is unknown. In 1976, the swine flu vaccine actually killed more people that it helped (learn more).

Other

A study by Dr. Cannell from California also showed that vitamin D can help prevent traditional influenza infections by strengthening the immune system. A daily intake of 2,000 IU daily should be taken at minimum, by most. A dose of up to 10,000 IU of vitamin D daily for a few days may also be helpful. Talk to your doctor about this. However, there are no studies specifically which show swine flu is prevented by vitamin D. Read more about vitamin D’s potential and the swine flu. or visit the vitaminDcouncil.org

Talk to your physician if you have concerns or other questions regarding swine flu.

Health And Survival: Swine Flu (H1N1) Symptoms- Protect Yourself, Phase 6 Alert In Effect!

Malaysia school closed down due to Swine Flu

Believe in yourself

I've been through alot. I've witness alot. I've experience countless of times. I know how it feels when you feel helpless, especially when your relatives/comrades/friends depending on you. I'm hereby to share my story to whoever who are about to read this blog. And please spare me the grammar mistakes. This is e-world. Not your mother's kiddergarden.

I'm just another kid who are obsessed with gaming. When Call of Duty 4 came out, my friend asked me to download it and test the game out. To be honest I was attracted to the game play. Soon later I get involved into multiplayer gaming scene. If you didn't know, Call of Duty 4 was my first competitive game. I've never get involved into any competitive scene before. Not even DotA or Counter-Strike. I was all awhile playing the game and one fine day there's a clan recruiting fresh meat into their squad as they just opened a division for this game. Out of curiosity of having a clan, I decided to join them. That opens the new chapter of my life in competition gaming. Very soon, they accepted me and they trained me day in and out.

"Do you want to play Tbun tourney?", he asked.

I was so eager to be part of the team to join the first ever Call of Duty 4 tourney and I trained day in day out just to guarantee I can play with them. Sadly I didn't make it. Maybe because I was too "fresh" and he thinks I'm not prepared. First ever tournament, I did not participate and I feel very sad about it. Soon after few months later, the team broke apart due to internal conflict. Old members left the team due to commitment of their job, retire from competitive scene, or even moved to other team. I myself also left and look for another clan to join because they are completely dead.

There, another turning point for me, starting a new chapter and I gain alot from it.

"You mind to lend me a hand?” he asked.

I agreed and I temporary took over his position as the leader of the team. I got back couple of my ex-teammates and we start from there. Both of us worked our ass out for the teams, rebuilding the whole division, rebuild the glory. We successfully recruited couple of players and we started to train with other team. There's one time where they mention about sponsorship. "Why not we fight for it?", I said to my teammate. We fought and we won, but ended up it was just another normal scrim, not even close to our motive, sponsorship.

Went back home with sadness and displease, my friends brought me a good news.

"Center of everywhere and it's not sponsoring any teams yet!"

We went to check the place out the next day. It looks exactly the same how my friends describe it to us. And my friend approached the manager. The manager said he'll need to see how good we are as there will be a tournament coming up soon. I was excited because that's my first tournament. We trained very hard, discussing the strategies, locations of every map till the last minute. But the result didn't really turn up as what we were expecting. Let's just say we lost to the team that happened to be the first runner-up of the competition.

But surprisingly, the manager gave us the deal. And he offered us the sponsorship. But in return we need to show them we are capable of winning. I worked my way up from there. I started to recruit players, train them, teach them, all sorts of training that came across my mind. Since then, we have 3 teams to teach among each other.

WGT was my first ever biggest competition I ever participate. To be crown as champion sounds a little far for me but my teams were never ever loses their faith towards their teammate. My team had a walk-over, where as another team have to face one of the best team during that time. After the walk-over, we're facing a team that we always train together. So we know our standard and theirs and we beat them easily. But the next opponent my team was about to face was one of the toughest opposition in that competition. We were nervous and all, but we never loses our faith. We lost, but we put up a good fight. We lost one point in SnD, but we got beaten flat in Domination. We contained by them and we can't do anything about it. That's my first time burst out in tears. It was my fault, but my teammate never loses their faith in me.

Soon after WGT, I hosted a competition in my home ground, where all the big teams are banned. I'm hosting the tournament so I'm banned as well. And this is a good opportunity for the weaker team to shine. I opened 32 teams to join, but 24 teams turned up. Which is a good number of teams considering the date was clashed with PC Fair. Long story cut short, my team crowned the champion. I was happy, rejuvenated and proud of them after so much hard work they’ve put in.

The story continues but I guess is best for me to end it here. This story is not to show how good I am in rebuilding stuff, or how almighty I am, but to show that nothing is impossible. And you are willing to work your way up especially when you have nothing, but friends. Never loses faith in yourself, or your teammate. Because you never know, faith is the key to success. My achievement might doesn't look good to you, but at least I can brag about it.

My current achievement,
- Previously sponsored by Sunway Rock Café, Sunway, Selangor
- Participated in Sunway Cyber Games (2008)
- Quarter Finalist in World GameMaster Tournament (2008)
- Hosted Sunway Rock Café Mini Tournament (2008)
- Council member for Malaysia community of Call of Duty 4 (2008-present)
- Hosted BlitZone PROMOD Tournament (2009)
- Semi Finalist in ESPGL COD4 League (2008-2009)
- CyberFusion 09 LAN Party COD4 Mini Tourney Champions (Team Flakes)
- Quarter Finalist in Tbun PROMOD Tournament (2009)

Belated anniversary

Just check back my old post. The first ever post was at 7th of March 2008. Wow. I didn't realize I've started this blog more than a year ago. Does that mean something? To me is it. At least I show that I have more durability than before. :)

I've been a spoil brat since the day I born. I confess that I always been a emo, brainless, easily get crazy, annoying, bitchy or [insertyourwordhere] kid. I know I'm not a perfect person. I also know I've disappointed alot of people in my life. I also know that there's people putting hopes on me, but I never accomplish. I also know that, you were waiting for me all these years but I never do anything. I also know that I've been a fucked up couple you ever met.

I know I'm not the best. I know I'm not good enough. I know I always giving you excuses.

I also know you think that I'm hiding the truth from you. I also know that you think I'm cheating on you. I also know that you think I have no love for you.

But what you didn't know is;

You are the love of my life. You are part of my life. You are one of the important person in my life. You are in my heart.

The most important part. I know you have no faith on me. I know you think that I'm just fooling around with you. But I've changed. I'm different now.

I do think I deserves a second chance. I do think I can do better than before. I do think I can be what you want me to be. The thing is that, what about you?

I miss you

Do you miss me? I do. Our last conversation ended at 2018, February 13th 2009. I just realized that it was a Friday. Friday the 13th. Black Friday.

I didn't know about it until now. I really don't want this to end, but to continue.

I think about you all day long
When I am not near you, all i think about is being with you
When you are near me, I feel like I have the peace of the whole world
I am not asking god for anything because i have you in my life, and you are everything i wanted
The thing I really want to do is to spend the rest of my life to make you happy as how you made me

Sarang hae

I jizzed my pants because of..

The launch date of Modern Warfare 2 is 11/10/09.



Now tell me. Who doesn't jizz their pants during/after they watch this teaser? I definitely gonna jizz everytime I watch it. :P

Hopefully there's not silly, or should I call it as dumb perks being transferred from CoD4:MW.

I deepest voice

I feel damn pathetic now. Am I even moving forward? Am I better? I don't know anymore.

I, today, not match at all. Do I emo alot? Do I get pissed alot? Am I so easy to get pissed off? I suck? I useless? I don't know.

I rely too much? I ask for too much? Is that too much to ask for? I don't know.

I just feel that I'm such a loser right now.

I feel distance. I feel separation. I feel ignorance. I feel.. pathetic.

My dream

Today was another step forward to my dream.

Dream that I was daydreaming about.

A dream that many people want it, but not all of them getting it.

A dream that is not easily achievable, but I'm moving forward to it.

A dream that I would never thought I can achieve, but it's happening in front of my eyes.

A dream that I've wished since young, but I don't need to dream it anymore.

I will move forward, I will stay focus, I will work hard.

I believe I can. I believe I can do it. I believe with the helps I had, I can be the best.

No one is gonna stop me from it. No one can stop me. No one could stop me.

There's no way for them to stop me from it. I will go for it, step by step.

I know I can.

Fucked

That's the only word I can describe my current situation. No more options. What's left just an option that I have to force myself to take. No more decision making, no more options to choose from. Like I said, fucked.

Isn't a little young for a person like me to face these situation? Is a big amount where I don't even know how am I suppose to find it from. Even work as full time I doubt I can do so. Part time is even worse.

Where should I find a big amount of sum to cover up? Where do I find a job that gives me the pay of what I need to cover? Where can I go? Who can I go? What should I do? Why now? Why not few years later? Why so soon?

Why do I need to face these problem in such a young age? People like my age still enjoying their moments or even their life in college. A big amount. A couple of stuff for me to worry. Family, Financial, Future.

Like I say, fucked.

I'm officially hate the f alphabet.

I wonder when can this problem solve. Probably take years, or worse, few decades. I'm just a fucking twenty two year old brat and I need to take care of stuffs that I should be taking care of at least 2 years later.

Dream coming true?

I really hope my dreams will come true.

The dream that I've been dreaming all these while,

the dream that everyone been dream about,

the dream that everyone desired,

the dream that everyone is going after.

Will the dream come true?

Will this dream actually become real?

Will this dream made me become something?

Will this dream give me something?

I really hope so.

I want to make this dream become reality.

I want to make this dream become the center of everyone's focus point.

I want to make something.

Cyberfusion

Cyberfusion was a blast. I was part of the record breaker and we successfully broke the record. Previous record was 203 participant with 36 hours. Our very own Malaysian record was 274 participant with 40 hour. I must say this was something for Malaysian to cheer about. At least we showed that we are capable to do something impossible.

I was CF0020.

We played tons of games and joined all the lan party mini tournament.



Who say Malaysia tak boleh? Who said Bolehland tak boleh? Malaysia BOLEH!! 274 participants have proven to every other Malaysian. When there's a will, there's a way. Come on Malaysian! Do something impossible to show everyone that we are capable to do the impossibles!

Event

That's why I never like to celebrate. It's like cursed. Seriously, fuck it. I never want to celebrate it again.

SuftLoft

A new website to share the latest info about.. EVERYTHING! You can get alot of info like IT, latest fashion, upcoming movies, and you can even get to know more friends through online!

The best thing is that if you have any doubts or questions about some gadgets or anything, you can ask for solution in SOS section.

There's alot of discussion going on around within the forum where you can get to know alot of friend, information, or maybe something you never thought about!

SurfLoft is the name. So make yourself free, go visit the forum. (:

Hitz.FM creation

I like all the creations they made. Though is wrong by illegally making up a video without the original's consent, but still makes everyone laugh.

Grand Theft Auto 4

I've been playing this game since the day I bought it. Can't get my mind out of this. This game is SOOOOOO..

I really mean it.

SOOOOOO mind blasting! This game is a must-buy product if you've been purchasing Rockstar games. Although there's some negative feedback, but heck, who cares about it when you can play the game?

Can't believe I really bought it in the first place. At first I'm still wondering if I should get this game due to alot of negative feedback I've been reading through LYN forum. But fuck it. Why should I listen to them when I have already made up my mind?



So I went to TSB and grab one. This game includes; 2 CD, 1 map, 1 guide book, and one magazine look-like guide that introduce the stuff and some landmark you will be seeing inside the game.



Here's some screenshot I took while I was playing.

This is my character. Good looking eh? I'm buying clothes la!


I call this BMW because it really looks like M3!

Everything

Everything just give it a fullstop. Maybe it's not to best solution you can ever find, but certainly not the worst. At least you know where and when you need to stop. I'm a person who doesn't like people drinking. Because you're using alcoholic to avoid your problem. Temporary or permanent, it doesn't really matter to me. It's good to see that you have decided what you want to do, who you choose to be with at the end. Maybe I'm the only one who knows you well, but doesn't necessary we should be together. You should pick someone who loves you more than anything else.

I admit I'm selfish interms of handling the relationship but there's other thing for me to take care of. I cannot just decide an important matter just like snapping fingers. It's not good for you or me, and either way it will hurt both of us in future. Yes I might seem to be giving you excuses, telling you alot of this and that, reasons of why I'm not doing this nor that. But I am 100% sure to say that I have never ever intended to separate you and him. I myself hate third party very much, if you still remember my condition. That is why I had never tried to interrupt.

That night, might be a mistake, might be a start for both of us, might be a stupid decision done by myself, but that doesn't matter. Probably we shouldn't even meet at all. If we didn't meet that night, we might be staying as friends like last time. I have never ever thought of hurting you because myself has been hurt for quite a number of times and I know how it feels. Probably I didn't really think about it deeply before I decide and that makes you feel that I decide everything without thinking about you. But as a man I need to sacrifice something in order to get something working. I sacrifice myself so that you and him can be together. I sacrifice myself so that he has another chance, which I think he deserves it after so many years.

Like I said, just give everything a complete fullstop. Don't think about it, don't mention about it. You are not suppose to stay behind, but to move forward. Stop looking back, start to think about your future. Maybe that will make you feel good. Probably the screw up part is good for both of us as well. Cause if that happens, I don't know how this gonna end up like.

I'm truthfully

Disappointed about what you trying to do. Your action makes me feel that there's totally no excuse for you to do so.

Cranberries - Linger

If you, if you could return,
don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude,
but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart,
It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand?
Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time?
Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep.
You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Valentine's day

Today is the day where all the couples spend time together. Probably even celebrate their anniversary. I still remember my first. March 18th 2001. Because that's the first time I ever sang a song to a girl. And I purposed to her if I can be her dearest, and she accepted. Now, shes not with me. Hope you have a great Valentine's Day.

I'm so..

I'm so stupid. After all the things I've done.
- I thought all I did for you is for the sake of both of us but apparently you sees it in a different way.

I'm so childish. Thought what I did was right.
- I thought all I did was to save both of us from our parents to separate both of us. That's why I choose to leave you instead of making one of us transferring to another school.

I'm so innocent. Thinking that you might appreciate what I did.
- After all these while, I realized what I did wasn't good enough. You did not like it. I thought what I did was right, but you don't seem to believe me anymore.

I'm so brainless. Thinking that you want to be with me again.
- I'm so stupid to that think you actually wanting to be with me again. I'm such a jerk for making you lost trust in me.

I'm so worthless. You never trust me anymore.
- You never trust me anymore. You never going to know what's going to happen now. I have prepared and now everything is rubbish to me now.

I'm so wanting to be with you, but you didn't want to.
- Maybe I hurt you too deep. I don't know. Like I said, I have never ever thought of hurting you, interrupting you and him, nor even trying to make your relationship broke apart.

Now I know. Memories are meant to be memories. You cannot bring it back, you cannot get it back, you cannot ask for it. You just can remember it and that will be remain in your mind for the rest of your life. You said I'm the one who understands you inside out. But do you even understand what I'm trying to say, or trying to do, or what is my intention? Frankly, do you even understand me? Isn't that a lil unfair for me? After all these while what I'm trying to do is to save both of us and you making it sound like I'm making excuses so that I can hurt you more. Isn't that unfair? But since you put it this way, I cannot do nor say anything more. Like I said, memories are meant to be memories. You cannot provoke it back so that it will become reality. I tried. I done. I failed. I'll leave.

5 Days

Been sick for 5 days already. But now I'm getting better, just a little bit of sore-throat. Hopefully I'll get well soon. I hate to be sick lar! :( Anyhow, I learn a new math few days ago.



+



=



There's not necessary to be 1 + 1 = 2. Sometimes could be 1 + 1 + 1 = 6! Double of the actual answer. But good thing is that I'm getting better now. Still I not anywhere near my usual standard. Being a big flop recently, which make me really sad. :(

I shall be cured soon and come back with my usual better form!