Grand Theft Auto 4

I've been playing this game since the day I bought it. Can't get my mind out of this. This game is SOOOOOO..

I really mean it.

SOOOOOO mind blasting! This game is a must-buy product if you've been purchasing Rockstar games. Although there's some negative feedback, but heck, who cares about it when you can play the game?

Can't believe I really bought it in the first place. At first I'm still wondering if I should get this game due to alot of negative feedback I've been reading through LYN forum. But fuck it. Why should I listen to them when I have already made up my mind?



So I went to TSB and grab one. This game includes; 2 CD, 1 map, 1 guide book, and one magazine look-like guide that introduce the stuff and some landmark you will be seeing inside the game.



Here's some screenshot I took while I was playing.

This is my character. Good looking eh? I'm buying clothes la!


I call this BMW because it really looks like M3!

Everything

Everything just give it a fullstop. Maybe it's not to best solution you can ever find, but certainly not the worst. At least you know where and when you need to stop. I'm a person who doesn't like people drinking. Because you're using alcoholic to avoid your problem. Temporary or permanent, it doesn't really matter to me. It's good to see that you have decided what you want to do, who you choose to be with at the end. Maybe I'm the only one who knows you well, but doesn't necessary we should be together. You should pick someone who loves you more than anything else.

I admit I'm selfish interms of handling the relationship but there's other thing for me to take care of. I cannot just decide an important matter just like snapping fingers. It's not good for you or me, and either way it will hurt both of us in future. Yes I might seem to be giving you excuses, telling you alot of this and that, reasons of why I'm not doing this nor that. But I am 100% sure to say that I have never ever intended to separate you and him. I myself hate third party very much, if you still remember my condition. That is why I had never tried to interrupt.

That night, might be a mistake, might be a start for both of us, might be a stupid decision done by myself, but that doesn't matter. Probably we shouldn't even meet at all. If we didn't meet that night, we might be staying as friends like last time. I have never ever thought of hurting you because myself has been hurt for quite a number of times and I know how it feels. Probably I didn't really think about it deeply before I decide and that makes you feel that I decide everything without thinking about you. But as a man I need to sacrifice something in order to get something working. I sacrifice myself so that you and him can be together. I sacrifice myself so that he has another chance, which I think he deserves it after so many years.

Like I said, just give everything a complete fullstop. Don't think about it, don't mention about it. You are not suppose to stay behind, but to move forward. Stop looking back, start to think about your future. Maybe that will make you feel good. Probably the screw up part is good for both of us as well. Cause if that happens, I don't know how this gonna end up like.

I'm truthfully

Disappointed about what you trying to do. Your action makes me feel that there's totally no excuse for you to do so.

Cranberries - Linger

If you, if you could return,
don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude,
but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart,
It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand?
Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time?
Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep.
You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Valentine's day

Today is the day where all the couples spend time together. Probably even celebrate their anniversary. I still remember my first. March 18th 2001. Because that's the first time I ever sang a song to a girl. And I purposed to her if I can be her dearest, and she accepted. Now, shes not with me. Hope you have a great Valentine's Day.

I'm so..

I'm so stupid. After all the things I've done.
- I thought all I did for you is for the sake of both of us but apparently you sees it in a different way.

I'm so childish. Thought what I did was right.
- I thought all I did was to save both of us from our parents to separate both of us. That's why I choose to leave you instead of making one of us transferring to another school.

I'm so innocent. Thinking that you might appreciate what I did.
- After all these while, I realized what I did wasn't good enough. You did not like it. I thought what I did was right, but you don't seem to believe me anymore.

I'm so brainless. Thinking that you want to be with me again.
- I'm so stupid to that think you actually wanting to be with me again. I'm such a jerk for making you lost trust in me.

I'm so worthless. You never trust me anymore.
- You never trust me anymore. You never going to know what's going to happen now. I have prepared and now everything is rubbish to me now.

I'm so wanting to be with you, but you didn't want to.
- Maybe I hurt you too deep. I don't know. Like I said, I have never ever thought of hurting you, interrupting you and him, nor even trying to make your relationship broke apart.

Now I know. Memories are meant to be memories. You cannot bring it back, you cannot get it back, you cannot ask for it. You just can remember it and that will be remain in your mind for the rest of your life. You said I'm the one who understands you inside out. But do you even understand what I'm trying to say, or trying to do, or what is my intention? Frankly, do you even understand me? Isn't that a lil unfair for me? After all these while what I'm trying to do is to save both of us and you making it sound like I'm making excuses so that I can hurt you more. Isn't that unfair? But since you put it this way, I cannot do nor say anything more. Like I said, memories are meant to be memories. You cannot provoke it back so that it will become reality. I tried. I done. I failed. I'll leave.

5 Days

Been sick for 5 days already. But now I'm getting better, just a little bit of sore-throat. Hopefully I'll get well soon. I hate to be sick lar! :( Anyhow, I learn a new math few days ago.



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There's not necessary to be 1 + 1 = 2. Sometimes could be 1 + 1 + 1 = 6! Double of the actual answer. But good thing is that I'm getting better now. Still I not anywhere near my usual standard. Being a big flop recently, which make me really sad. :(

I shall be cured soon and come back with my usual better form!

I'm so sick.

I can't taste anything for two straight days, eat porridge for two straight days, sitting at home for two straight days, fever for two straight days. I guess I need to take a break. I want to take a week break. I'm too tired, tired of everything. I feel like giving up everything now. I don't want to care anything. I just want to rest. I can't really do much thing and I don't think I can stand any longer if this continue. I want to step down. I want to be free. I'm so tired. I'm now officially away till next week. Reach me through cellphone if you have important things. Else I'll ignore the rest. Because, I'm too tired.

I'm sick

Illness is so suffering. /= My left arm is hurting me right now and I got no idea what's going on. I'm having sore throat, headache, and high fever. I hate to be sick. \: