Recent me

Too many things happened recently till I need to keep myself alone to think about the issues. Of course there are some good stuff happened. But bad things would be things that I had never thought of before.

I really did not know that at all until the night he told me. I am happy that he is being sincere to me but I find it hard to accept it. It takes time definitely and I still need more time to process the information I got it yesterday. Whatever it is, I still wish that both of them will have a happy ending.

I watched I am number four on Monday. I get to watch it premier cause my friend won four tickets to be one of the first to watch the movie It was a pretty decent show I must say and I enjoyed every bit of its CGI cause it was really awesome.

I really do not wish to remember sad things that I had encountered. I find it stupid to be dwell into the past and I never like to be staying in past. But sometimes reality just does not go along the way.

Now I need vacation. I need to get away from this place and take a break. But, where to? And, with who? :(

I do not know, what to trust anymore. Faith and courage had failed me, miserably. I find it hard to trust again.

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I am a bastard child. Enough said

Facebook?

I have deactivated my facebook. Partly was because of my studies. Been neglecting alot even I get an okay result. But now I want to do better since I am doing double major. Need to put more effort as my syllabus is getting tougher and tougher.

Been wanting to deactivate my account long time ago but just do not have the time and guts to do so. Don't ask me why. I have no idea as well. I just feel like deactivate it.

Tomorrow will be my first day of working. So excited! :3 Can't wait for it but commitment needed and that's my weakest. I hardly can commit to anything and the last time I tried to commit, I ended up quitting the job. :S Hopefully this time around I can change things

COMMITMENT! AHHHHHHHHHHH!

My song of the week. Released 1st May 2010 @ iTunes.

Chinese New Year!

Chinese New Year was quite nice despite it is not as happening compare to last year's, but I don't really mind cause for the first time, I spare myself from eating with him. Something new to me I guess. If I'm not mistaken, I have no seen him since this year. I am intend to keep it this way since he does not have the heart.

My cousin's birthday falls on the day she visited my place, along with my other relatives! We had a cake from Secret Recipe! It is an awesome cake. Now I'm missing the cake. We had gambling session like every previous year to follow our tradition. This year I only won MYR16, but my sister lost like MYR100+ We played black jack, in-between and some other weird games. It was really fun cause I get to hang out with my cousins again!

After that we went for dinner. New Paris Restaurant! Pretty decent but is a little expensive I'd say. Two tables for MYR393. My brother in-law paid everything, but my aunt insist she wanted to pay some. So I guess there will be another dinner coming soon. But I'm going to work soon so probably I can't make it. Sighhh. :/

This Thursday I'm going to start my work. I am going to work in a petstore in One Utama! So do let me know if you want to buy anything from the petstore so that you will not be coming over knowing it is out of stock. Now I am thinking of what should I do. Apparently there is a better job offer and is indirectly linked to my study field but I had already promised this job. Dilemma! >_<

Sometimes I wonder if everything in this world has its own calculation. When I say to myself "Yeah everything has its own way to calculate", I was proved wrong. Because I can never calculate how you think, or what you think about me. I know that there might be alot more guys would do the same thing I did for you but I just hope that you can be sincere to me since I had been doing the same thing. Just hope that one day you would look for me and say "Look, I know you're nice and all but we're not going to work out." If you tell me that at least I know to stop. But now you are making me hanging in the middle of nowhere and it is starting to cause misery in me. I am no Saint nor robot. I have my own feelings and I do need someone to pamper me too.

Last but not least, I'd like to share this song to everyone who came across this blog.