Happy Birthday

to myself! Didn't get to celebrate cause I am in the middle of tough week. I need to complete a training module and prepare my presentation on Wednesday. This year's birthday, nothing special. Only bought some camera gadgets for myself. And my mom gave me some token. Next maybe post I will put up the gadgets I bought!

This month is quite hectic for me cause I need to conduct a training in class and a talk show as well. I am kind of exhausted for now, been sleeping at least 5am in the morning. Everyday took like 2 hours of nap and sleep for 3 hours then I had to wake up to continue my projects. How I wish I can spend some time with someone I adores, somewhere far enough for me to forget things that been bugging me.

Facebook?

I have deactivated my facebook. Partly was because of my studies. Been neglecting alot even I get an okay result. But now I want to do better since I am doing double major. Need to put more effort as my syllabus is getting tougher and tougher.

Been wanting to deactivate my account long time ago but just do not have the time and guts to do so. Don't ask me why. I have no idea as well. I just feel like deactivate it.

Tomorrow will be my first day of working. So excited! :3 Can't wait for it but commitment needed and that's my weakest. I hardly can commit to anything and the last time I tried to commit, I ended up quitting the job. :S Hopefully this time around I can change things

COMMITMENT! AHHHHHHHHHHH!

My song of the week. Released 1st May 2010 @ iTunes.

Finals is OVER!

Finally! My last paper; Intercultural is over! Gosh I had a couple mistakes on the table I draw but that doesn't matter since it is not gonna cost alot of marks. I'm guessing should be able to get around 8 marks? Hopefully 10 or more though. LOL!

After exam, we went to eat Poon Choy at Sg.Buloh! OMG it is sooooo delicious! There's prawn, chicken, duck, seafood, abalone and lots more! Whole dish took 10 of us an hour to finish! It is a little costly, but it is worth it cause there's various of food inside the dish! It is been so long I actually that relax and drink with friends. We went Friendscino cafe had a couple of drinks, then we went back at approximately 1 in the morning.

I am a free man until January! Ask me out k? :D

"Suey" day!

In Hokkien, whenever someone said: "Wah today I damn suey ah!" means they had a really bad day.

I was trapped in a lift, first time in my life I was trapped in a friggin lift while I was on my way to examination hall for my Moral paper! I was like "wtf?!" when the lift stopped at 6th floor while my examination hall was located at 9th floor. But weird enough that I did not have slight fear on that incident, but was laughing all the way with my friend whose trapped as well. It took them like 5 minutes for them to noticed that we were trapped and at least 10 minutes for them to save us. And yes, my friend and I was late for the test but that was not the most "suey" part.

When I reached the examination hall, I thought they would ask why are we late. But instead of that question, they asked another! "Who sent you guys up?" the examiner asked. I was confused because the seating indicated that I was suppose to take my paper on the 9th floor. So why was she asking me this question? Apparently there was a mixed up with the schedule and after sat down for 5 minutes watching people doing their papers, my friends and I was being called to go down to 1st floor to take our finals. Seriously, they need to improve in this. Luckily this is not a very important paper or else I am going to file a complain about it! -_-

On the other hand, my friend won 4 premier tickets to watch Narnia on Cineleisure. That movie was awesome. Guess my day was not that "suey" afterall. TEEHEE!

Bad week does not seem so bad afterall

Luckily my lecturer has the heart and let us loose. So now the coming week I'm having 1 assignment to due on Monday, 1 presentation on Tuesday and Friday, 1 booth on Saturday. But Saturday booth event I'm having alot of work to do since I was elected as the designer of the stage. :S

So now, I need to paste my event poster around the college this coming Monday. If you happen to be free on Saturday, please do dropby to SEGi Subang as there's a big event going on! We're celebrating 1Malaysia with 12 different cultures. (:

I'm still struggling to come out with an idea to design the stage since I don't even know what powers do I have. Not to mention I'm not even done with my booth design yet. Good thing is that I know what I'm going to use for the floor. Still not that bad after all. So now at least I'm relax a little bit.

Midterm!

Mid term tomorrow. OMG I have not even start reading my notes! Crap..

Monday - Intro to news reporting

Tuesday - College Algebra

Then continue by classes. OMGGGGGG!

Exhausted weeks and competition!

I am putting myself into a competition again. This time, I'm aiming for the gold. rawrrrr! Been inactive alot these few days due to the hectic workload I got from my studies and other stuff, I'm so exhausted right now and need a break. So this competition come in as a break for me. So for now, besides the midterm I'm facing and couple of assignment I have to turn in next few weeks, I'm playing a competition as well. Wish me luck!

Oh yes the next blog post, it's not halal. XD HEHE!

Off to Thailand!

That's what my mom gonna be at for next few days. So for the mean time, I'm all alone by myself cause I know my sister definitely going to be out for the whole day. I need to think of what can I do this three days cause my mom going Hup Chai for 3 days, coming back on the Tuesday night.

Monday, I'm going to apply PTPTN and wait for them to contact me cause the bursary said it is going to take more than a month for them to approve my loan. So at the mean time, all I can do is wait. After that, do installment for my college fee then I can get my results. Oh my god, I don't see them doing things so efficient besides asking money from the student. .____.

Anyways, I found out my result even before I took my result slip. So after when I get my result, first thing I'm going to do is to talk to the lecturer, see which part I screw up the most. Because I'm really expecting at least a C for Interpersonal Communication. But she gave me a D. So worst case scenario would be me paying another MYR100 to remark my paper. Hopefully I can get C from there. :S

Part time job! I'm too lazy to find now, I'll just wait for that guy to call me and my friend to see if there's any available position because that fella say going to delay the opening. So latest would be around September. Yay!

This sucks.

I failed my interpersonal communication. This sucks. .____. But good thing is that, I got B for my Bio. Still, it sucks to fail a subject that you are confident to pass, or at least a C. Planning to remark the paper. This sucks. ._____.

MUET results are out!

For those who are went for MUET during April, do check your result cause it's out! You can check your results from here. You can check your results through the below table, to know which category you in.

Band 6- Very good user (Aggregated score:260-300)
Band 5- Good user (Aggregated score:220-259)
Band 4- Competent user (Aggregated score:180-219)
Band 3- Modest user (Aggregated score:140-179)
Band 2- Limited user (Aggregated score:101-139)
Band 1- Extremely limited user (Below 100) Poor

My result;
Listening - 27/45
Speaking - 30/45
Reading - 77/120
Writing - 44/90

MUET full mark is 300. I got 178, which means I got band 3. I was just two marks away from band 4, which is SEGI's requirement to pass in order to take UIU subjects. WHAT THE FUCK!!!! TWO MORE MARKS! And yet they don't let me to go into band 4!

I'm about to go nerd rage. arghhh!

Results are out!

Public Speaking - C
Elementary Statistics - C
Philosophy - C

Wtf? Expecting Public Speaking to get B, but ended up C. Thought I could've fail my stats, I got C. :D Philosophy, I have not much complain about it cause I didn't really study much for the exam, just do all the assignments. I randomly circle the answer I don't know during the finals. Whoa I'm sooo lucky :P Overall, I must say I am content with my results. At least I didn't have any failed subjects. Next semester I'm going to concentrate on my communication papers! Take all the low level papers so that I can finish my communication paper ASAP!

Finished counting and I have left like 20+ subjects to complete my whole syllabus. Which means I need to take like 4-5 subjects during long semester, 3 subjects in short semester to finish my syllabus faster. Hmm..

Hectic lifestyle but looks promising

Hectic like crazy this semester. Just when I thought I can relax for a while after I took my Biology quiz on Friday last week, another quiz is coming on my way, this Wednesday. OMG! Short semester so hectic! OMG I don't know if I can handle the quiz this time! >_< Wanted to relax, but then now since there's another quiz, I can't relax. I have to work like crazy until my midterm finish, which is next week. :/

Recently played back an old game. A game I've been playing since form 2 and it had been with me throughout my adolescent stage. Don't know why, suddenly felt like playing that game again and dig out all my old games. Install it into my desktop, and I can't stop playing it now. :P

I'm grateful that I have friends who are always ready to listen to me and stand by my side and help me think of an solution to my current financial situation. Friends can be very extreme sometimes. They can be smiling in front of you, but backstabbing behind your back, talk bad about you while you not around, telling all your friends about how bad you are last time. I never like this kind of matter because for me, friends are something you MUST have when you're outside doing/working/fighting for yourself. Without friends, you're probably end up "dying on the roadside without anyone notice".

I'm going to apply loan for my studies this coming August. Since my friend had already told me how does it work. I believe I can get it without any problem. Since he had been saying that no money to support me financially, I might as well depend on myself and get to where I want myself to be. Then now, I will never need his help anymore and we can draw a clear line with him once and for all.

Other than that, selling my current house also another issue, but thankfully I met someone who are more than willing to help me. How should I thank them after so much help they offered me? I'm really grateful that I have so many friends support me behind my back while I'm facing this issue, issue that I thought I can never solve it myself.

My world are definitely look much more clearer than before! I believe I can solve the problem, I believe I can get what I want myself to get, and what I want to be! I can do it!

Results, what?!

Again, the department ate my results again. Damn shit! Two weeks after the result release, I still didn't get to see my results. -__-;;

Had a scare when the department said I might need to do forty-six subjects to complete my syllabus. Worse to worse they told me I can complete forty subjects, without doing the other six subjects but I only can graduate as second class honors. WHAT THE FUCK?! But luckily I went to clarify with the head of department, my double major wasn't affected at all. So I'll continue follow the same syllabus as what we talked about it before.

Lucky me. >.>

Patah Kaki, again.

Again, yes again. And this time I think I slightly dislocated my knee during my futsal session. OMG! I had to walk crippled for almost a week! >_< Nevertheless I still attend my class cause I already missed once. If I miss this time it'd be two times and I only get to miss ONE more time! FML!



Geez. And assignment just came by. How great. ): Two assignment, one gonna hand in this wednesday, another end of this month. This is how rush in short semester. ARGHHHH!

Exam results!

Exam results are out! I knew that this week the department will be releasing the results and I'm so eager to collect mine just to see how was it.




BUT..




BUT..



The department forget to print my results out! OMFG?! ARGHHHHHH..

Class starts

So fast, May was past tense. Lots of stuff happened during this month. I went clubbing, had a blast. Went roadtrip, had a lot of fun. So many things happened till lost count. Which means I had a meaningful holiday during this one month semester break!

Class going to start soon. But apparently the timetable changed. There's one additional class for Biology to be taught by a lecturer where everyone say shes far kind than Mr.Chong. At least she don't screw you over during your finals. But the only sad part is that I have to wait from 11.30am till 3.30pm just for my class. So what I do during this 4 hours of freedom?! Hmm.. Now I'm thinking cause I have few options;
1) I take the 3.30pm class, and apply for gym so that I can go workout during the 4 hours of free time.
2) Ignore the 3.30pm class and go back-to-back class from 8.30am till 3.30pm but get to leave early to avoid traffic jam.

Recently just too much of unhappy moment until I am really exhausted, literally. But luckily I have my friends to accompany me for roadtrip to Langkawi. I'm really grateful that I have friends like them, although the real intention of that roadtrip wasn't for me, but is more than enough.



Time to concentrate on my classes now. Need to score!

MUET is done!

MUET was finally done two days ago and I got not much time to update it. Frankly, it wasn't as hard as I think it would be for speaking test. I find myself speaking quite steady and hardly any sense of shakiness. Yay for me!

After that test, my friends and I went to Summit to have our lunch. Oh yes my ulcer still haven't cure by then so I'm eating with pain! But, no pain no gain! Hahaha! After eating I went to look for new games for my PS3 and I have doubts on if I should get Super Street Fighter 4. But I bought it anyway. :P

I want to go on a road trip! I'm stuck in here for so long I really feel like moving somewhere to get some fresh air.



rawr. I need food. <3

My PC is back and some random stuff.

Finally! After so long of waiting and waiting AND waiting, my motherboard of my i5 finally back from RMA. It took me from 28th of Feb until 30th of April. That's more than a month without a proper PC to do my assignment and shit. Oh god you can't imagine that life with a crappy PC. >_> Of course, I need to thank Navine a.k.a SupahSub to installing back my PC together as one piece. :D

SO! Finally! I'm with my i5 now and I need to start do my projects as well. If not when next semester comes I have no time to do it at all.

Speaking of college, I'm going to have my speech test coming Tuesday. Oh my god I don't know if I can pass MUET or not. Although people been saying "It's not hard! Oh come on, don't worry about it! I'm sure you'll do just fine!" But I sense that I might have a great chance of retaking it again cause I have no confident at all during the test and I am worried like shit now. :/ Hopefully I can get at least Band 4 so that I can start taking my UIU subjects.

Tomorrow, the day I don't wish to come. We'll be talking to him again about this house and my education. I think he'll be happy to hear that we've decided to sell the house cause he have no more burden over here. What a jerk. Only know how to avoid the problem and push it away to my sister. I've promised my sister I'll keep cool tomorrow and I'll just keep quiet tomorrow just to listen what he have to say. If he say something stupid or insult my mother, he's gonna get it.

Anyways, I'm looking for a part time job during the whole May. Anyone want to hire me? I can do all sort of jobs! Prostitution not included of course! :P

In holiday but not in holiday mood. :/


Planning to go outstation, just to get away from here and relax a lil. Possible? :/

Exams! and some other things.

Exams are around the corner. The corner happens to be tomorrow! Tomorrow will be my MUET test. A test that determines if I can take UIU subjects for all the coming semesters. BAH! I never study or anything cause my friends kept on telling me it's easy and stuff. Well, hopefully like what they say. If I really fail MUET, I need to rush it by taking IELTS or TOEFL which cost at least MYR500.

So expensive! Go rompak bank laaaa! :(

I might be rude. I might be cruel. But you'll thank me in the future. No point dragging this relationship. It's already at the edge and I have no intention to push you off the cliff, but you left me no choice. I really hope you can live your own life. Good luck in the future.

Recently I've been spending alot of time at home, doing nothing. @@ I need to find a job since I gonna have my 3 week holiday right after my Monday exam! I don't want to slack around. I need money to sustain my life without depending on my mother. I don't want to add anymore burden to her, my sisters. I am a boy and I should be taking care of the family, not vice versa.

People who know me well enough knows that I am not the pray until something happen kind of person. If I want something, I don't pray. I will do whatever it takes to reach the target, of course in a correct way. I don't understand why people like to say "hopefully this can work out, that can become true." Instead of hoping for it, why not try to make it happen by your own hand? What's the point of you waiting there and pray for miracle to happen? Miracle doesn't happen without any hard work! Seriously, stop praying and start act on it.



" Life is going to knock you down, from time to time, just like a good boxer. The difference in success and failure in life is whether or not you get up or stay down and it's a choice. I choose to get up and fight on."
Written in 2008 by W.P. Garrett

College

Finally I've finished my informative presentation and my drama. It was a rough day on that day and also a memorable one. I don't think I'll be forgetting about it for the next few years to come. Anyways, I got 19.9 out of 25 for my informative speech and 19 out of 20 for my drama presentation. I'm not really satisfied with the speech but definitely satisfied with my drama presentation. I'm actually hoping for an A for my public speaking class but now I think the highest grade I can reach is B. ):

So finally I finished two of my major assignment, but I still have a statistics presentation and persuasive speech to do in coming weeks. This is bad cause I haven't done any single thing to prepare my slides or info yet!

Now I'm planning to take double major. The second major would be communication! I don't know why I want to take that but hey, I definitely can tell you the ONLY one reason and you'll say my decision is right! From what I see, if I'm taking single major, which is psychology, I am required to take 40 subjects, regardless of UIU or ADP. But in double major, which is psychology and communication, I need to take 40 subjects as well, regardless of UIU or ADP! So instead of spending the same amount of time doing one thing, why not do two?! Correct?!

But the thing is that, I don't have much time left. Apparently my time is running out and my fund are not enough to even support me to continue my studies. Reason? One and only. That fella. I've total lost trust and began to hate that man as day goes by. Eventhough he is the one who brought me into this world, but still I don't see him contribute as someone he should besides stuffing me the money.

When I was at HELP, I did not pay attention to my classes, I skipped my class and my CGPA was screwed, literally. But now I'm different. I'm concentrating in every single class I attend and I keep track of my CGPA now. I'm really wanting to make this work. I can't keep my mom to worry about my academic anymore. I need to be a man she dream of. I want to be a man she can depend on.

I know I can do it. But I need more time. Can I have some more time please?