You left me?

You've just leave here. That's just way beyond I can ever imagine. Too far, until I never even thought of that could be happening.

I heard crack sound within me. Sigh..

Class starts

So fast, May was past tense. Lots of stuff happened during this month. I went clubbing, had a blast. Went roadtrip, had a lot of fun. So many things happened till lost count. Which means I had a meaningful holiday during this one month semester break!

Class going to start soon. But apparently the timetable changed. There's one additional class for Biology to be taught by a lecturer where everyone say shes far kind than Mr.Chong. At least she don't screw you over during your finals. But the only sad part is that I have to wait from 11.30am till 3.30pm just for my class. So what I do during this 4 hours of freedom?! Hmm.. Now I'm thinking cause I have few options;
1) I take the 3.30pm class, and apply for gym so that I can go workout during the 4 hours of free time.
2) Ignore the 3.30pm class and go back-to-back class from 8.30am till 3.30pm but get to leave early to avoid traffic jam.

Recently just too much of unhappy moment until I am really exhausted, literally. But luckily I have my friends to accompany me for roadtrip to Langkawi. I'm really grateful that I have friends like them, although the real intention of that roadtrip wasn't for me, but is more than enough.



Time to concentrate on my classes now. Need to score!

First time

For the first time, I actually struggle to do it. Everytime when I wanted to do it, I'll just say it to them and hoping they would say nice things and ask me not to. But this time, I'm kind of struggle to tell them about it. But I know it's the right choice for me to do, also right choice for me to step down. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing but I just feel like it's time. After so many times I've tried to do it, this is the first time I actually felt that there's need for me to do so.

Reason for me to step down? I'm just not good enough to be part of em. I can't be the best, so I decide to die like the rest. It's as simply as that. But I would prefer to do something from the back. Something that I was hoping to be but due to some restriction that I had, I can't. Hopefully after I tell them my decision I could do something different. I'm just too tired to even try to save it when people taking me as a pinch of salt.

There's only one thing left in my mind. Would they ever speak to me again after I tell them my decision?

Friendship?

Human being can be so cruel at times. Sometimes I just can't figure out why people can be so mean to others, especially someone who did nothing to him or whatsoever. I don't get it.

Aren't friend suppose to help each other? What I felt now is a stab on my back, worse still I knew he did it and I cannot do anything about it because I appreciate what me and him have. We have so many common friends and I don't want to make it worse by confronting him because I know it's gonna be explosive.

Why is this happening? I really got no idea. I don't think I did anything wrong and yet I had this kind of treatment. How is that fair to me?

Everyone is so selfish to the fact that they only care about themselves. Why can't this world to be a better place where everyone share everything with different kind of people, no matter what's their race, religion or even nationality? This world wouldn't be in this condition if everyone willing to share everything with everyone

Human are greedy. That's the reason of existance of Seven Deadly Sins.