The okok recent me

Just finished my midterm and another two quiz which I am not satisfied about. I guess I can kiss As good bye. I kind of screw up my Effective Listening because my lecturer gave an instruction about the page length and I only wrote one and quarter page. I do not know how will he access my paper but I really hope for the best because I cannot screw up this paper. Another paper would be Group Dynamics. I did not do so well on my first quiz, only managed to score 7 out of 15. Today I did another quiz, which is 10 and a half out of 15. So basically I had lost 12 and half marks out of 30. I can kiss As good bye for my Group Dynamics.

As for Writing for Media, I think I am doing pretty well at the moment, just that I need to see my midterm marks and my first assignment marks to double confirm if I should kiss my As goodbye. Critical Thinking would be pain in the ass. I am required to do SEVEN journals, access, summarize and explain to my lecturer tomorrow. Best thing? Not one journal is done. And the worst is that I have to present it on 30th of March, which is exactly 15 days later. I really need alot of luck for this semester because this is the first time I feel pressured on getting good grades for my paper.

But for the good news, I have found a house. Located near Taman Paramount LRT Station. It is a good venue because they have everything there. Supermarket, morning market my mom always go. Whatever you can think off, it is there. I am truly happy now because we finally got ourselves a house. So another problem just settled.

Problems are easy to solve when you talk things out. Of course you need to give some space to the other party because it is still fresh.

I know I am a problem solver. So for now I need to concentrate on my studies so that I can graduate fast!

Recent me

Too many things happened recently till I need to keep myself alone to think about the issues. Of course there are some good stuff happened. But bad things would be things that I had never thought of before.

I really did not know that at all until the night he told me. I am happy that he is being sincere to me but I find it hard to accept it. It takes time definitely and I still need more time to process the information I got it yesterday. Whatever it is, I still wish that both of them will have a happy ending.

I watched I am number four on Monday. I get to watch it premier cause my friend won four tickets to be one of the first to watch the movie It was a pretty decent show I must say and I enjoyed every bit of its CGI cause it was really awesome.

I really do not wish to remember sad things that I had encountered. I find it stupid to be dwell into the past and I never like to be staying in past. But sometimes reality just does not go along the way.

Now I need vacation. I need to get away from this place and take a break. But, where to? And, with who? :(

I do not know, what to trust anymore. Faith and courage had failed me, miserably. I find it hard to trust again.

Chinese New Year!

Chinese New Year was quite nice despite it is not as happening compare to last year's, but I don't really mind cause for the first time, I spare myself from eating with him. Something new to me I guess. If I'm not mistaken, I have no seen him since this year. I am intend to keep it this way since he does not have the heart.

My cousin's birthday falls on the day she visited my place, along with my other relatives! We had a cake from Secret Recipe! It is an awesome cake. Now I'm missing the cake. We had gambling session like every previous year to follow our tradition. This year I only won MYR16, but my sister lost like MYR100+ We played black jack, in-between and some other weird games. It was really fun cause I get to hang out with my cousins again!

After that we went for dinner. New Paris Restaurant! Pretty decent but is a little expensive I'd say. Two tables for MYR393. My brother in-law paid everything, but my aunt insist she wanted to pay some. So I guess there will be another dinner coming soon. But I'm going to work soon so probably I can't make it. Sighhh. :/

This Thursday I'm going to start my work. I am going to work in a petstore in One Utama! So do let me know if you want to buy anything from the petstore so that you will not be coming over knowing it is out of stock. Now I am thinking of what should I do. Apparently there is a better job offer and is indirectly linked to my study field but I had already promised this job. Dilemma! >_<

Sometimes I wonder if everything in this world has its own calculation. When I say to myself "Yeah everything has its own way to calculate", I was proved wrong. Because I can never calculate how you think, or what you think about me. I know that there might be alot more guys would do the same thing I did for you but I just hope that you can be sincere to me since I had been doing the same thing. Just hope that one day you would look for me and say "Look, I know you're nice and all but we're not going to work out." If you tell me that at least I know to stop. But now you are making me hanging in the middle of nowhere and it is starting to cause misery in me. I am no Saint nor robot. I have my own feelings and I do need someone to pamper me too.

Last but not least, I'd like to share this song to everyone who came across this blog.

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Was really busy this and last week. My mom went to hospital twice for the first time. First time was because her backache due to overstretch while doing house work. Second was because her throat was swollen. She was worried that the tonsils might be blocking her breathing, so I was summoned back to home to send her to hospital. I was really worried sick. I almost couldn't hold myself together. I bet no one can actually see their loved ones went to hospital twice in a week.

And so she was admitted to hospital for further checkup. I was there two days with her, while my sisters were busy working. Luckily I was having holiday. :S These two days was the longest days in my life. I never had a proper sleep. Was taking naps on a chair while I can. My heard was totally broken when I see her like this. Life can be tough and fragile at the same time. That practically made me change my view on life.

She was discharged today afternoon but I wasn't there. I was trying to cover a news which I've promised my friend weeks ago. Whatever it is, I find that support from families and relatives are really important when comes to this kind of incident. Nothing can hold you other than the strength came from your family and relatives. I believe I've change my perspective on life and I do know that if I don't appreciate my time with my loved ones, I will regret for the rest of my life when they are gone.

Hectic lifestyle but looks promising

Hectic like crazy this semester. Just when I thought I can relax for a while after I took my Biology quiz on Friday last week, another quiz is coming on my way, this Wednesday. OMG! Short semester so hectic! OMG I don't know if I can handle the quiz this time! >_< Wanted to relax, but then now since there's another quiz, I can't relax. I have to work like crazy until my midterm finish, which is next week. :/

Recently played back an old game. A game I've been playing since form 2 and it had been with me throughout my adolescent stage. Don't know why, suddenly felt like playing that game again and dig out all my old games. Install it into my desktop, and I can't stop playing it now. :P

I'm grateful that I have friends who are always ready to listen to me and stand by my side and help me think of an solution to my current financial situation. Friends can be very extreme sometimes. They can be smiling in front of you, but backstabbing behind your back, talk bad about you while you not around, telling all your friends about how bad you are last time. I never like this kind of matter because for me, friends are something you MUST have when you're outside doing/working/fighting for yourself. Without friends, you're probably end up "dying on the roadside without anyone notice".

I'm going to apply loan for my studies this coming August. Since my friend had already told me how does it work. I believe I can get it without any problem. Since he had been saying that no money to support me financially, I might as well depend on myself and get to where I want myself to be. Then now, I will never need his help anymore and we can draw a clear line with him once and for all.

Other than that, selling my current house also another issue, but thankfully I met someone who are more than willing to help me. How should I thank them after so much help they offered me? I'm really grateful that I have so many friends support me behind my back while I'm facing this issue, issue that I thought I can never solve it myself.

My world are definitely look much more clearer than before! I believe I can solve the problem, I believe I can get what I want myself to get, and what I want to be! I can do it!

Fucked

That's the only word I can describe my current situation. No more options. What's left just an option that I have to force myself to take. No more decision making, no more options to choose from. Like I said, fucked.

Isn't a little young for a person like me to face these situation? Is a big amount where I don't even know how am I suppose to find it from. Even work as full time I doubt I can do so. Part time is even worse.

Where should I find a big amount of sum to cover up? Where do I find a job that gives me the pay of what I need to cover? Where can I go? Who can I go? What should I do? Why now? Why not few years later? Why so soon?

Why do I need to face these problem in such a young age? People like my age still enjoying their moments or even their life in college. A big amount. A couple of stuff for me to worry. Family, Financial, Future.

Like I say, fucked.

I'm officially hate the f alphabet.

I wonder when can this problem solve. Probably take years, or worse, few decades. I'm just a fucking twenty two year old brat and I need to take care of stuffs that I should be taking care of at least 2 years later.

My nephew's birthday.

Not sure when, but they had a party for him. So all my relatives all came by and celebrate this little boy's birthday.


The birthday boy and his parents, my cousin and his wife.


The birthday cake


The elders


The youngsters


My uncle's family, took it when my aunt is trying to cut the cake.

These are one big family. :)

This is my another niece. Shes so cute, until you want to pinch her face!



Isn't she adorable? <3

I got scared.

My mom made me worried the whole night. She knocked on my door, and her face was so white. Though doesn't happen really long I really got scared. Life is so fragile.