Exhausted weeks and competition!

I am putting myself into a competition again. This time, I'm aiming for the gold. rawrrrr! Been inactive alot these few days due to the hectic workload I got from my studies and other stuff, I'm so exhausted right now and need a break. So this competition come in as a break for me. So for now, besides the midterm I'm facing and couple of assignment I have to turn in next few weeks, I'm playing a competition as well. Wish me luck!

Oh yes the next blog post, it's not halal. XD HEHE!

Updates!

Exactly one month and 2 days I never update my blog. Shit load stuff happened during this one month period. Crossfire Intel Challenge 7, couple of nightout with friends, and I haven't had a proper sleep since then. But!

I HAZ PS3! Yay!

Yes I love it to the bits! <3 Finally I can get my own PS3 and play my favourite game(s). One of em; Heavy Rain. I gonna buy alot of game and play with my friends! I only have God of War 3 currently and I'm planning to buy some multiplayer games as well like.. Street Fighter 4, Gran Turismo 5 and more, only if I have the budget. :P

Anyways, tomorrow is my speech presentation. 2 hours before, I'm scared to death. But now, I think I'm ready! After preparing the slides and practice the speech for couple of times, I think I'm really ready for it! Yes! Oh and my drama presentation tomorrow as well. Oh well two "assignment" to be hand in on the same day and guess what? It sucks, especially the drama!

But anyways, I'm prepared for the challenge everyone give or gave me. I'm real ready this time. But I'm not ready for my persuasive speech yet! OMG! Another month! But but, that's the matter for the next month. This month I enjoy first! Nihaha! :D

If anyone of you is reading my blog and you're looking for a book to read, grab The Lost Symbol before it's too late. I only read like 18th chapter and I'm beginning to chase already. The storyline is so nice and perfect and I just can't wait for the movie to come out in 2012. Hopefully the world can be survive by then. :/

I'll try to update my blog from time to time, more often. I didn't update because I'm lazy too busy to do so. After tomorrow, PS3 night with mah buddies!

To ppl that I treasure, much love. <3

Moving Forward

I think we did another step on moving forward to my dream. One team that I've been dreaming to beat, been train myself so hard to beat, been telling myself I can do it. I finally did, although we lost two map after that, but I am really proud of my man already. They are showing me how much they are wanting it and they show me they can do it. I believe the next time if we meet each other, we will be having a better chance of beating them. I know we can. I know my mans can. I know I can. Wait for me. I'll be coming back for you all.

Out of difficulties, makes miracle

Today went to my college to register. Surprisingly they said I've already registered, eventhough I didn't do anything at all. Weird eh? But I need to go back to college on Friday for orientation. I sound like freshies. wtf! Hopefully I can finish my college faster, stop wasting time already.

Believe in yourself

I've been through alot. I've witness alot. I've experience countless of times. I know how it feels when you feel helpless, especially when your relatives/comrades/friends depending on you. I'm hereby to share my story to whoever who are about to read this blog. And please spare me the grammar mistakes. This is e-world. Not your mother's kiddergarden.

I'm just another kid who are obsessed with gaming. When Call of Duty 4 came out, my friend asked me to download it and test the game out. To be honest I was attracted to the game play. Soon later I get involved into multiplayer gaming scene. If you didn't know, Call of Duty 4 was my first competitive game. I've never get involved into any competitive scene before. Not even DotA or Counter-Strike. I was all awhile playing the game and one fine day there's a clan recruiting fresh meat into their squad as they just opened a division for this game. Out of curiosity of having a clan, I decided to join them. That opens the new chapter of my life in competition gaming. Very soon, they accepted me and they trained me day in and out.

"Do you want to play Tbun tourney?", he asked.

I was so eager to be part of the team to join the first ever Call of Duty 4 tourney and I trained day in day out just to guarantee I can play with them. Sadly I didn't make it. Maybe because I was too "fresh" and he thinks I'm not prepared. First ever tournament, I did not participate and I feel very sad about it. Soon after few months later, the team broke apart due to internal conflict. Old members left the team due to commitment of their job, retire from competitive scene, or even moved to other team. I myself also left and look for another clan to join because they are completely dead.

There, another turning point for me, starting a new chapter and I gain alot from it.

"You mind to lend me a hand?” he asked.

I agreed and I temporary took over his position as the leader of the team. I got back couple of my ex-teammates and we start from there. Both of us worked our ass out for the teams, rebuilding the whole division, rebuild the glory. We successfully recruited couple of players and we started to train with other team. There's one time where they mention about sponsorship. "Why not we fight for it?", I said to my teammate. We fought and we won, but ended up it was just another normal scrim, not even close to our motive, sponsorship.

Went back home with sadness and displease, my friends brought me a good news.

"Center of everywhere and it's not sponsoring any teams yet!"

We went to check the place out the next day. It looks exactly the same how my friends describe it to us. And my friend approached the manager. The manager said he'll need to see how good we are as there will be a tournament coming up soon. I was excited because that's my first tournament. We trained very hard, discussing the strategies, locations of every map till the last minute. But the result didn't really turn up as what we were expecting. Let's just say we lost to the team that happened to be the first runner-up of the competition.

But surprisingly, the manager gave us the deal. And he offered us the sponsorship. But in return we need to show them we are capable of winning. I worked my way up from there. I started to recruit players, train them, teach them, all sorts of training that came across my mind. Since then, we have 3 teams to teach among each other.

WGT was my first ever biggest competition I ever participate. To be crown as champion sounds a little far for me but my teams were never ever loses their faith towards their teammate. My team had a walk-over, where as another team have to face one of the best team during that time. After the walk-over, we're facing a team that we always train together. So we know our standard and theirs and we beat them easily. But the next opponent my team was about to face was one of the toughest opposition in that competition. We were nervous and all, but we never loses our faith. We lost, but we put up a good fight. We lost one point in SnD, but we got beaten flat in Domination. We contained by them and we can't do anything about it. That's my first time burst out in tears. It was my fault, but my teammate never loses their faith in me.

Soon after WGT, I hosted a competition in my home ground, where all the big teams are banned. I'm hosting the tournament so I'm banned as well. And this is a good opportunity for the weaker team to shine. I opened 32 teams to join, but 24 teams turned up. Which is a good number of teams considering the date was clashed with PC Fair. Long story cut short, my team crowned the champion. I was happy, rejuvenated and proud of them after so much hard work they’ve put in.

The story continues but I guess is best for me to end it here. This story is not to show how good I am in rebuilding stuff, or how almighty I am, but to show that nothing is impossible. And you are willing to work your way up especially when you have nothing, but friends. Never loses faith in yourself, or your teammate. Because you never know, faith is the key to success. My achievement might doesn't look good to you, but at least I can brag about it.

My current achievement,
- Previously sponsored by Sunway Rock Café, Sunway, Selangor
- Participated in Sunway Cyber Games (2008)
- Quarter Finalist in World GameMaster Tournament (2008)
- Hosted Sunway Rock Café Mini Tournament (2008)
- Council member for Malaysia community of Call of Duty 4 (2008-present)
- Hosted BlitZone PROMOD Tournament (2009)
- Semi Finalist in ESPGL COD4 League (2008-2009)
- CyberFusion 09 LAN Party COD4 Mini Tourney Champions (Team Flakes)
- Quarter Finalist in Tbun PROMOD Tournament (2009)

I deepest voice

I feel damn pathetic now. Am I even moving forward? Am I better? I don't know anymore.

I, today, not match at all. Do I emo alot? Do I get pissed alot? Am I so easy to get pissed off? I suck? I useless? I don't know.

I rely too much? I ask for too much? Is that too much to ask for? I don't know.

I just feel that I'm such a loser right now.

I feel distance. I feel separation. I feel ignorance. I feel.. pathetic.

My dream

Today was another step forward to my dream.

Dream that I was daydreaming about.

A dream that many people want it, but not all of them getting it.

A dream that is not easily achievable, but I'm moving forward to it.

A dream that I would never thought I can achieve, but it's happening in front of my eyes.

A dream that I've wished since young, but I don't need to dream it anymore.

I will move forward, I will stay focus, I will work hard.

I believe I can. I believe I can do it. I believe with the helps I had, I can be the best.

No one is gonna stop me from it. No one can stop me. No one could stop me.

There's no way for them to stop me from it. I will go for it, step by step.

I know I can.

Dream coming true?

I really hope my dreams will come true.

The dream that I've been dreaming all these while,

the dream that everyone been dream about,

the dream that everyone desired,

the dream that everyone is going after.

Will the dream come true?

Will this dream actually become real?

Will this dream made me become something?

Will this dream give me something?

I really hope so.

I want to make this dream become reality.

I want to make this dream become the center of everyone's focus point.

I want to make something.

Sunway Rock Cafe Mini Tournament

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