Sigh.

Sigh of relief? Sigh of sadness? Sigh of sleepless night? I don't know anymore. Please do understand that what I am doing is for you, and you only. Maybe is wrong timing, like you said. And I can't deny it. Timing is a weird thing isn't it? Sometimes you thought you have the best time. But before you realized, the best timing was just few seconds away from you. But when you realized, it's always too late.

I'm really happy that our memories did not just went off from your mind after so many years. Although I can remember our things more than you do. But it's more than enough. It is, more than enough. With these memories you gave me last time, few days ago, few hours ago, is more than enough for me to think of it some other time when I'm alone.

Is it end now? Seriously, I do not know, frankly I am not sure as well. Could it be the end? Yes it could be. Could it be a new beginning? Of course it is, I can assure you that. New beginning for both of us. Our lives, our future. Sadly, I won't be the one beside you, sharing your happiness and joy.

I know that you having strong feelings on me now. Hate or love, doesn't really matter to me now. Cause I know that I've done what I do best, I've done what I can do, to save me and you. You might not be able to see the real picture of me doing so, but if you think about it, you might be able to realize. Like my General Psychology lecturer said, "Think outside the box"

Maybe I'm a bad person, who kept on hurting you again and again. Well I might just the person who you think I am. I probably the person who understands you inside out, but I believed your parents can do so as well. But he. He is the one who going through all the obstacles with you, he'll be always beside you when you are feeling down. He might not understands you, but I believe that he is just the guy who you are looking for. And that's something where your parents or siblings can't do to you everytime.

I hope you will cherish every moment you share with him. I've heard someone said to me. "The biggest treasure I ever have, is the moment when I'm spending with you". Hope you understand what it means, and stay happy as well. I will not be on your side, but I will always think about you.

Will these happen? Me and You?

Although this relation has past more than six years, but I do cherish the memories you gave me. I want you to know that although I'm not with you physically, but I will always thinking about you. Thinking about how you look when you try to tease me, comfort me while I'm down, when you are happy because of something else. I might look like the bad-est guy in the world during that time, but I can assure you that I will strive my best not to repeat the same mistake I did last time, I will assure you that I will try my best not to hurt you anymore, give you all the happiness I can give, I will cherish and appreciate every moment I shared with you.

But.

Will these happen?
Will we stay as happy as we were if we together?
or will be better if I stay away from you?
If I stay away from you, will you be happy?
or you actually prefer me to stay away from you?
Will we still be friends, as close as always?
or better off we be couples again?
or we should stop contacting each other?
Am I hurting you whenever I talk to you?
will the memories come back to you?
or you have completely immune to it already?
Is my existence causing you too much trouble?
or you prefer I stay with you?
or you don't even care about what I do?

XEF shirt

XEF shirt already done days before WGT, but didn't have the time to post it up yet. Here's the picture of XEF shirt in action during WGT.











The actual shirt are as below.

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Front view

Back view

Sleeves

Logo

Clan

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This is the shirt where we do it to rush for WGT. So maybe there's some "weakness" about it. Hopefully our next shirt can do it better. :)

P.S: Credits to chapree, a LYN forum user who took take our photos during WGT.

Objective completed.

One of my aim is complete after I beat them today. They asked alot of team to play against them after they revamp their whole squad. Basically they put the best player in their clan into a team, and see what's the outcome. Probably their chemistry is not around, we won them 3-1. We outclassed them, totally. They were the team who beat us during SCG. And that time, they won third place. But now even they revamp and put all the best player together, we still beat them. I'm really proud of my players, at least they helped me to complete one of my objectives. My next aim would be winning some other tournament. I know we can do it. I will push to my limit, and I will do my best to get to best out of everyone. Although I'm not fully concentrate on other team, but I'll give them a lift so that they still can continue progress. Hopefully they will show me some result. I will strive my best to bring XEF to it's glory days like before!

WGT Result

We lost in Quarter Final against SCG Champion, ESP.wOw. We lost in psychological warfare where all the supporters cheering for them, when we only have 3-5 people cheering for us. :( But we put up a good fight. We had done well, especially SRC|[XEF]FcuK. They won over ESP.eMo in SnD, but sadly, they lost in Domination and Crash. But I'm very satisfied with their performance. Just that is abit of sad when we were this close and we didn't make use of the opportunities.

First: ESP.aXe
Second: RnF
Third: ESP.wOw

We already improved alot since the mass exodus. I am proud of my comrades and I will strive my best to bring this clan to it's glory!