Two months without a post

Wow, didn't realized I did not post anything since October, this place must be dusty by now. Let see what I have been doing for the past two months.

I had joined a non governmental organization named Amoeba. They cater themselves to help out the society by visiting the unfortunates kids who got issues from their family or gotten dumped since they were a little kid. I am glad that I get to know them cause this had became my new aim in my life. I never had a aim since I was 19 and I needed one now to change my direction in my life. Previous post I mentioned about volunteer. Yes I am still volunteering myself to help out whoever is in need and I cannot stress how happy I am currently. In the space of two months, I had visited three orphanage home, and joined CATA camp for the second time

Honestly I cannot stress how good is CATA camp because there are no words to describe the experience I had been through in CATA camp. What I can say is, give it a try and you definitely will not regret of paying MYR190. Besides, MYR40 from MYR190 will be sponsoring an orphan to participate as well. So while you sponsor a kid to join CATA camp to learn new things, you learn new things too! Isn't that one stone two bird?

Coming soon there will be big projects coming along where I will be super busy because I am part of the committee. I just hope I can cope it because those task will not be easy. It is not things that I had done before and I certainly do not want to fail anyone simply because I do not want to disappoint them for putting so much trust in me.

Upcoming events:

1) Christmas Party

2) Home Visit by me

3) Amoeba Leadership Camp

4) Amoeba Launching

5) 30 hour famine leadership camp

6) Actual 30 hour famine

6 task to complete next year. I hope I can complete these task with flying colors. Of course I do not want to fail any of my subjects because it will be wasting time for me to retake and not to mention the amount of money I have to pay to retake. Ish!

My new girlfriends.

P.S: ILY. <3

义工

不知为什么，自己会那么喜欢义工。以前还没有做的时候，就觉得好像很麻烦。有很多东西要做，有很多人要依赖你。有很多东西要准备。

可是，现在的我好像真的是180度转变。既然爱上了义工。而且还试着带我的朋友一同参与。开始怀疑我到底是不是有问题。可是我真的深深爱上了做义工。昨天刚刚参加了一个义工的年庆。看到那么多的新朋友，真的很感触。因为真的有很多人想为这个社会做出贡献。所以我也不可以输。

这次的义工，必须去outstation. 所以我现在是在前往着滨城，做30 hours famine, 饥饿30的摄影师。跟上回一样，也适当摄影师。可是上回没有饿到，这次会是饥饿着拍照。

我希望我的人生可以那么充实，不要在懒懒散散了。滨城，我来了！出发！

我爱你，有错吗？

你知不知道；到你说你感觉到很怕我的时候，我真的痛了。

昨天是我人生中最长的三十分钟。从来没有经历过那么长的三十分钟。在那里，一直忍受。可是一开车的时候就崩溃了，开到回家。

我明白了。现在的我，伤痕累累。没想到，唯一的爱人资格都被取走。就连爱人的资格都没有。

今天妈妈叫我起床的时候，就已经发现我有问题。可是我否认。知我父母心，一点都没错。

别人都以为我很喜欢笑，别人都以为我很乐观，别人都以为我是笑娃娃，每天都在逗人笑。是，我是逗人笑，因为我不想别人好像我这样，每天愁眉苦脸。其实我也不想这样，可是我的性格和我周遭的事情，没办法让我不愁眉苦脸。

很多人都以为我开心果，可是又有多少人知道我正真快乐的时候而是少之又少。有多少人知道我面对的问题。

有时候我真的不想再掩饰。真的有一点累，因为每天都要带着那张面具，让别人以为我很快乐。可是，谁又能了解我的心情？

我，累了。我想休息。不想再想那么多。

Posting through iPhone, like FINALLY!!

Finally they made an app for bloggers I was starting to wonder if they going to neglect the users of blogspot Instead since they took SOOOOOOO long just to make one friggin app. Plus, I doubt it is hard to "compose" this app cause it's only 1.2mb and I downloaded it like less than 5 sec, wtf?

Anyways, yay finally they published this app and finally I get to write post from my iPhone!

Btw, that's recent me! Don't know how this attachment would turn out, let's hope for the best! :D