义工

不知为什么，自己会那么喜欢义工。以前还没有做的时候，就觉得好像很麻烦。有很多东西要做，有很多人要依赖你。有很多东西要准备。

可是，现在的我好像真的是180度转变。既然爱上了义工。而且还试着带我的朋友一同参与。开始怀疑我到底是不是有问题。可是我真的深深爱上了做义工。昨天刚刚参加了一个义工的年庆。看到那么多的新朋友，真的很感触。因为真的有很多人想为这个社会做出贡献。所以我也不可以输。

这次的义工，必须去outstation. 所以我现在是在前往着滨城，做30 hours famine, 饥饿30的摄影师。跟上回一样，也适当摄影师。可是上回没有饿到，这次会是饥饿着拍照。

我希望我的人生可以那么充实，不要在懒懒散散了。滨城，我来了！出发！

我爱你，有错吗？

你知不知道；到你说你感觉到很怕我的时候，我真的痛了。

昨天是我人生中最长的三十分钟。从来没有经历过那么长的三十分钟。在那里，一直忍受。可是一开车的时候就崩溃了，开到回家。

我明白了。现在的我，伤痕累累。没想到，唯一的爱人资格都被取走。就连爱人的资格都没有。

今天妈妈叫我起床的时候，就已经发现我有问题。可是我否认。知我父母心，一点都没错。

别人都以为我很喜欢笑，别人都以为我很乐观，别人都以为我是笑娃娃，每天都在逗人笑。是，我是逗人笑，因为我不想别人好像我这样，每天愁眉苦脸。其实我也不想这样，可是我的性格和我周遭的事情，没办法让我不愁眉苦脸。

很多人都以为我开心果，可是又有多少人知道我正真快乐的时候而是少之又少。有多少人知道我面对的问题。

有时候我真的不想再掩饰。真的有一点累，因为每天都要带着那张面具，让别人以为我很快乐。可是，谁又能了解我的心情？

我，累了。我想休息。不想再想那么多。

Posting through iPhone, like FINALLY!!

Finally they made an app for bloggers I was starting to wonder if they going to neglect the users of blogspot Instead since they took SOOOOOOO long just to make one friggin app. Plus, I doubt it is hard to "compose" this app cause it's only 1.2mb and I downloaded it like less than 5 sec, wtf?

Anyways, yay finally they published this app and finally I get to write post from my iPhone!

Btw, that's recent me! Don't know how this attachment would turn out, let's hope for the best! :D

Random Post #1

Reading back my entries made me want to write a blog post. I have decided to disclose the recent me and the life of last semester. Let's go clockwise alright? We'll start from last semester.

I took Critical Thinking, Writing for Media, Group Dynamics and Effective Listening. 1 Level 100 paper, 2 Level 200 and 1 Level 300 paper. It's not as easy as I thought it was but also not as hard if I actually motivate myself to study harder. I was on the verge of breaking down cause my lecturer rejected my journals that I had picked for my research topics. That's not all. I had to cover on my Effective Listening, Writing for Media and Group Dynamics class as some of them do have group projects. So there's where the problems start kicking in.

Critical Thinking was really pain in the ass because I had to find 7 journals to support my research topics and believe me, it is not easy to find journals and suitable journals for your research topic. The first time I found 7 journals, only 3 are usable

My lecturer's remark was: "Research topic too broad. Please focus on one area."

I was like wtffff?!

So I had to change my topic and make it a little more specific. I had to crack my head and think of another. Thank god I found a topic specific enough. Found 7 journals and showed her, she said this to me..

"The first three journals are fine but not the last four. It's totally not related to the topic."

Geez! I was quite close to mental breakdown because I had other projects on hand! But thank god I get her approval right before the deadline and I get to finish my research topic before my presentation.

This was the only subjects that gets to my nerves. Other are quite okay because we worked in a group. So it is much easier since I can rely on my groupmates. At the end, I got my results; D for Critical Thinking, C for Group Dynamics and Writing for Media. I got B for Effective Listening! So I guess I'm a good listener afterall. :P

Comes to this short semester which only lasted for 7 weeks. I had midterms during week 4 and luckily I took easy subjects. 1 Level 300 paper and 1 Level 100 paper. It was okay cause I had already familiarize with the lecturer's style of teaching and the assignment she gave.

All I hope for is to pass both of this subjects. I do not wish to retake the subject again because I already running out of time. I do not want to waste my time. I want to graduate before the end of next year. But two senior projects just does not allow me to do so. Guess I only get to graduate in the year of 2013. I left less than 15 subjects if I'm not mistaken + 2 senior project. So hopefully I can rush it. Sighhhhh... :/